how do I end a toxic friendship? My "friends" always make joke about me, but i've realized its happened quite often to a point where I feel like they mean what they say?,

Putting yourself first is very important. If they are constantly being negative towards you, they may not be your true friends. Of course friends joke around with each other, but only to an extent. You should tell them how you feel, then tell them you don't think it's a good environment for you to be in. Don't let them manipulate you and make you think you're the problem. Friends come and go, you can always find more. I know it may not be the same because it's not them, but it's better than being friends with toxic people.

When ending a relationship like that, I find it important to be gently assertive and, while caring about their feelings, calmly let them know my reasons why. Ironically, remaining in a toxic relationship actually feels more lonely and isolating than being alone. Once I found this to be true, it made ending those relationships much easier. For me it was kind of a three part evolution - first, taking the leap of faith and ending the toxic relationship, then learning to enjoy my own company and build a healthy self esteem. After working on that, it gave me the space and ease to be more healthily selective regarding whom I choose to form emotionally intimate relationships with!