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CLvee
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PathStep 76 Compassion hearts29 Forum posts10 Forum upvotes9 Current upvotes9 Age GroupAdult Last activeApril, 2022 Member sinceMarch 6, 2022
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11 Days post break up 💔
Relationship Stress / by CLvee
Last post
 March 15th, 2022
...See more I messed up. I unblocked her from Facebook and she's already in another relationship with her toxic ex. An ex she convinced me I never had to worry about during our relationship. I was with her for 6+ years and she tossed me away like trash. How can she be so hurtful?! What did I do to deserve this?! All I've ever done is love her unconditionally and be faithful. I struggle with anxiety and depression and she's using that as a scapegoat saying they are the reason she left me. I'm shaking so bad right now.. I feel absolutely demolished.
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Zombie
Relationship Stress / by CLvee
Last post
 March 11th, 2022
...See more Day 9 post break up... Feeling drained. I feel like I'm just existing in this fractured state of mind. Lost. Confused. Numb. Everything is a trigger for a breakdown. Shopping in Walmart without my person was pretty hard. I had to fight back tears in the aisles. So used to doing things together... Ugh. Day 4 of NC... 6+ years together... I feel alive but dead.
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Going thru my 1st lesbian break up
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by CLvee
Last post
 March 14th, 2022
...See more It hurts so bad. She broke up with me after 6+ years. Now she's ghosting me and won't give me closure. I need support and advice on how to maneuver thru this hard time. I'm still in love with her. Its only been 7 days... I feel awful.
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Heartache 💔
Anxiety Support / by CLvee
Last post
 March 7th, 2022
...See more 7 year relationship just ended. My anxiety is at an all time high. My body aches, my hands hurt, my stomach is in shambles. I cant stop shaking my foot. I have these sudden bursts of deep dread that make me want to vomit. I'm a mess.
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6+ Years & She just gave up on us
Relationship Stress / by CLvee
Last post
 March 10th, 2022
...See more My girlfriend of 6+ years decided to end our relationship on March 1st, 2022. She said she can't "do this" anymore. I begged and pleaded for her to give us a chance. To not give up on our love but she just kept saying she was done. I know our relationship wasn't perfect, like everyone we had ups & downs. But I really thought our love was worth protecting and fighting for... We've had close calls before but she never let me leave. She would always tell me she didn't want me to go and that she loved me. This time she let me leave with all of my belongings. She didn't fight or try to take any responsibility for her part that contributed to why we broke up. Yet I was there begging for her to fight for me. For us. She just shutdown and left me alone. I've moved back to my family home since then and have been receiving support from my siblings and family. I'm so devastated and hurt. I feel worthless and empty. I try to talk to her and ask for closure but since the break up she has been ghosting/giving me the silent treatment. I just want to know if this is it? If there's no hope of fixing things... But she won't talk to me. I did not want to break up. I wanted to work on things and fix the relationship. How could she just give up on me? I struggle with depression and anxiety, this heatache is debilitating. I can't sleep, I break down randomly throughout the day, I feel so... Broken... And because I'm the dumpee seeking closure but getting the silent treatment I feel stuck in this middle limbo of holding on for hope and letting go to heal. Ugh. Also, the day after she broke up with me she sought comfort in her ex claiming to be best friends. Throughout our relationship she had me believing her and her ex were not talking. Her ex once tried to run them both off the road by grabbing the steering wheel. I don't understand how she can just run back to her for comfort. I don't know if it was to hurt me or if this whole thing was going on in secret, which makes me feel sick to my stomach. My ex violated my trust in our relationship twice and I forgave her both times. I believed she wouldnt betray my trust again but seeing her with her ex is causing so much unwanted/negative thoughts. Its making me physically sick. I don't know how to move on. I don't want to move on. I'm scared. This woman was/is my person. I love her unconditionally and only want good things for her. I'm still in love with her. I'm breaking my own heart I guess.. She won't give me closure.. My heart hurts.
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