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CherryBlossoms246
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Having a hard time today
Relationship Stress / by CherryBlossoms246
Last post
 August 8th, 2025
...See more Unfortunately right now I'm really upset about this ex. Essentially, I moved back to his location after a year apart, and he didn't want to meet, which I was really looking forward to. He ditched me. I have some ideas about why because he has a lot of problems himself. But I'm heartbroken, and we're no contact. I still care about him and I wish he'd let me. I also wish he hadn't broken his promises to me, and I'm angry. Today and yesterday, I've been thinking about possible future scenarios where we could awkwardly run into each other (same city). I really want to talk. The finality of it kills me. I've thought about trying to call him in a few months or so-- maybe he'll pick up, maybe not. But I know I shouldn't be focusing on these thoughts. I have to have my own life, but I don't even like my own life, so I'm not motivated at all. I have bad depression outside of the relationship thing, so I'm not doing well overall.
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recent breakup
Relationship Stress / by CherryBlossoms246
Last post
 August 2nd, 2025
...See more Hi guys, First I want to let y'all know that I'm actually doing okay, there are just some things that I would like advice on. This was my first (short) relationship and first breakup. How do you deal with knowing that your ex is in the same city, but you're not talking? I find this very painful. Right now I'm in his hometown, and soon I'll travel to the city where he currently lives. It'll already be hard for me to see the places we've gone together. I think it'll be much worse to know that he's somewhere there at the same time, yet we're not going to see each other.
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better life now but still sad
Depression Support / by CherryBlossoms246
Last post
 August 2nd, 2025
...See more Hi guys, So now I've moved to a country I've wanted to be in for a long time, and I'm starting a journey that will hopefully lead to me having a career I want and meeting new people. I've worked hard for this. But to be honest, the time on the plane was incredibly hard for me, and I had a whole mental break once I got here. I feel that I'm not grateful enough and I will still be so depressed even though this is supposed to be my ideal situation. I have been very depressed in this country before, so I know it's possible. I feel that I just can't enjoy things and be happy. I think I need to switch meds so that's part of it. (tw): to be honest, I've also thought about suicide quite a bit. I have 2 method ideas, although I haven't come close to doing either of them. But I scare myself a lot.
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Feeling physically bad
Depression Support / by CherryBlossoms246
Last post
 June 2nd, 2025
...See more I've been recently noticing that I feel physically terrible as my chronic depression is very bad. I think I've been feeling like this for a long time, but I'm noticing it especially when my depression gets worse. I'm exhausted all the time and sleeping a ridiculous amount. In my worst times, I've been sleeping a lot overnight and then napping in the afternoon, or just lying in bed. Today I'm tired and having a lot of trouble doing my schoolwork, although it's very easy and quick. Have skipped some meals. I also can't even think very well. Anyone else experience this?
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Worried about being suicidal in future
Depression Support / by CherryBlossoms246
Last post
 June 2nd, 2025
...See more So I'm moving to a new place relatively soon in about 1 1/2 months. I've been looking forward (?) to this for a long time. I also have chronic depression, and I've been feeling very bad lately for many months. I've just focused a lot on work and little pleasures. I've thought that I should at least see what life will be like after this move, so I kept going even though I had little enthusiasm. I still have little enthusiasm, and honestly I'm not even excited for the move. I just think I might as well do it. I'm worried that my depression will continue to be bad in the future and I'll experience suicidal thoughts. I've had them a few times in the last few months. I'm very scared of myself because of this. I'm working on a medication change, but I'm still scared right now. Does anyone have advice about sensing that these suicidal thoughts will continue in my future?
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How to motivate myself to have a career?
Depression Support / by CherryBlossoms246
Last post
 June 2nd, 2025
...See more Hi guys, I'm trying to make a list for myself of things that will motivate me to work hard. Usually, I have absolutely 0 interest in university or a future career. I'm naturally very smart and I've been in high-level academic programs my entire life, but I've never cared about any of it (plus I've always had chronic depression). I just do it for my family, to make them proud. I'm wondering if there are any ideas to make myself actually want to do these things in my life. The only one I have so far is: that one scene in Legally Blonde where Elle Woods starts studying hard at Harvard. That's literally it. Any ideas for my list?
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How do you stay motivated to feel better?
Depression Support / by CherryBlossoms246
Last post
 January 9th, 2025
...See more I've dealt with chronic depression my whole life, with different periods of ups and downs. Right now I'm in a difficult period, although not as bad as my worst times when I was suicidal. I don't really feel suicidal, but I can feel the change in my outlook, where I'm starting to wonder why I'm even bothering with all my goals. I suppose I should work on how I'm feeling, but it's difficult to determine why I should. I don't really care about myself or my future. I'm only working on all these life goals for the sake of my family and friends, who would like to see me be successful. Advice would help, thanks.
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Unmotivated
Depression Support / by CherryBlossoms246
Last post
 October 17th, 2023
...See more Feeling unmotivated to keep going :( I just had to do a group activity about career networking… but i don’t really feel interested in having a career or life or anything. It’s making me feel really down
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