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Country3262
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PathStep 1 Compassion hearts54 Forum posts22 Forum upvotes40 Current upvotes40 Age GroupAdult Last activeMay, 2025 Member sinceJuly 18, 2021
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Challenging Decisions
Depression Support / by Country3262
Last post
 May 31st, 2025
...See more Currently I’m having to make difficult decisions that revolve around my grandma. We found out she has aggressive lymphoma and as 50/50 chance of chemo treatment. My grandma needs 24/7 care at this point. Becoming a caregiver again was that last thing I wanted to do. I have a dog with severe separation anxiety that we adopted 3 months ago. She becomes destructive when left alone even on medications. I’ve tried training and she can’t be crated without freaking out more. I have to make a challenging decision whether or not to surrender her back to the shelter I adopted her from. I’m started college full time in August and my grandma is starting chemo next week. Things are getting too complicated to balance a dog with severe anxiety, college, work, and grandmas cancer treatments. I don’t know what to do. I feel like I’m a bad person for having to take a dog back to a shelter.
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Cancer
Grief & Loss / by Country3262
Last post
 May 12th, 2025
...See more Sometimes I feel as though my life is a sad movie and the universe keeps hitting repeat on the remote. Recently my grandmother has been diagnosed with a terminal cancer and I’m feeling completely lost in a sea of emotions. Having to face the reality of going through round two of being a caregiver only after a year of losing my grandfather. On top of having to decide to pause my life and take a year off of college. Which the college program im entering in 2 months, if I have to drop out then I can’t re-enter the program. It’s a one time chance. I’ve been keeping myself up late at night crying because I’m scared. Having small panic attack of stress of being thrown into the caregiving role again for my grandma. I’m terrified to lose her because shes like my mother after raising me for 11 years. Im 23 and feel like my life has been so unfair. Truthfully I wish I was the one who had cancer because I’m sick of my life.
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Losing a friend
Friendship Support / by Country3262
Last post
 January 26th, 2025
...See more A male coworker of mine asked me out 7 months ago and I gently turned him down. He’s a nice guy but I’m just not in the right place right now to be in a relationship. Ever since turning him down our relationship has changed. He doesn’t really talk or joke around with me anymore. The only interaction we have at work anymore is good morning and goodbye. It makes me sad that we don’t talk anymore. Now he’s dating another girl at our work and our interactions are fewer then what they were. Especially when his gf is around he doesn’t talk or even hold eye contact with me. What can I do to fix this? To be honest I like him but we both have bad depression and anxiety so I didn’t think our relationship would be healthy. The between us has been slowly driving me insane. I’m not sure what to do.
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Christmas was ruined again
Relationship Stress / by Country3262
Last post
 December 26th, 2024
...See more I think I just ruined my family Christmas. Sorry to vent on a holiday.  My mom brought her bf to our family party which is fine. Everything was going fine until somehow political and other sensitive info was brought up. I tried shutting down the conversation twice but he wouldn’t stop talking. He has autism bad so when he starts ranting about something he won’t stop. It was making everyone uncomfortable and my mom couldn’t get him to stop. I slammed my foot on our coffee table and it trigger him into yelling. My mom finally had to drag him out of the house to leave. I know I was out of line but who brings up those topics at Christmas and at someone else’s family party. Later I texted my mom stating that he wasn’t allowed over ever again and she was defending him. She started apologizing for him and I told her if he can’t apologize himself don’t contact me. At this point I just want to cut my mom out of my life and her bf. Even though she didn’t cause the issue but I’m done putting up with disrespect from the guys in her life and her picking them over her own family.
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It’s too late
Relationship Stress / by Country3262
Last post
 November 29th, 2024
...See more A few months ago a male coworker asked me out and I gently turned him down. However I had so much going on with college and work I didn’t think it would work between us. So I told him I wanted to remain as friends. I wasn’t sure if I did like him and apart of me wanted too. Since then my regret has been building and I can’t get him off my mind. Multiple times I thought about talking to him about it and trying but I don’t think it was appropriate since I hurt him first. It’s been about 5 months and today I found out he’s dating another girl from work and I felt like crying and heartache. What is wrong with me. I didn’t think I liked him but I’ve never been in a relationship so all these new feelings are confusing. I know it’s too late to say anything but I’m happy for him. I guess all along I did like him and never knew it.
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Feeling on edge
Depression Support / by Country3262
Last post
 September 9th, 2024
...See more My depression episode has been bad the this last week and is causing me to have suicidal thoughts. I feel like a big trigger has been my grandpa’s celebration of life is next week and it’s the day after my birthday. I don’t know why my family planned it that way but they did. My grandma was saying she wanted to have a cake at the event for my bday and I told her absolutely not. Not to be mean but I don’t want my bday to be grouped in with a funeral memorial event. It’s causing my head to tell me it’s my funeral they are celebrating. To top it off my dad will be there and I cut all ties with him a year ago. We have never had a good relationship and if I see him I don’t think I can hold back screaming at him for his recent actions. At this point I don’t even want to go to the event.
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Confused about my feelings
Relationship Stress / by Country3262
Last post
 August 4th, 2024
...See more About 2 months ago I turned down a male coworker that asked me out. Ever since I feel like I’m regretting it and I can’t stop thinking about it. I don’t know if I am interested in him or if I just feel bad about it. He’s a really nice guy but he has depression, makes suicidal jokes at work, and doesn’t take care of himself. My head is telling me it’s a bad idea due to those reasons and we have nothing in common. However I feel like my heart is telling me something else. Is it empathy of something else I’m feeling. I’m very confused..
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Just friends
Relationship Stress / by Country3262
Last post
 June 9th, 2024
...See more Recently I got asked out by a male coworker but I told him I just wanted to be friends. It makes me feel terrible due to my reasoning behind the rejection but he is an extremely nice guy. Unfortunately he has bad mental health issues and doesn’t take care of his health like he should. For instance, at work he will make small jokes about suicide daily, he hardly eats anything, and constantly consumes energy drinks. As someone who already suffers from mental health problems for most of my life I don’t want to be in a relationship with someone who triggers mine. During work his I can tell his joke would trigger mine every now and then. I know he is getting professional help but I feel like a bad person for judging someone for something they can’t control. Even though I know that it was the right call because I should protect my own health and not have to worry about keeping someone else’s mental state stable along with my own.
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