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Iamcha01
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PathStep 1 Compassion hearts13 Forum posts2 Forum upvotes6 Current upvotes6 Age GroupAdult Last activeJuly, 2026 Member sinceNovember 16, 2020
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How to tell the friends I've ghosted for years why I disappeared?
Anxiety Support / by Iamcha01
Last post
 August 1st, 2023
...See more I've always been socially anxious all my life. I'm bad at maintaining friendships and I'm guilty of ghosting them. I had friends from college that I lost contact with after graduation that are trying to reconnect because of my disappearance for so many years. I have always been ignoring everyone's messages asking about me because it's making me anxious. I feel so terrible being such a bad friend and I know they don't deserve to waste their time on me. What's making me feel worse is they found me and went to my house a few days ago trying to catch up like nothing happened at all (this is the first time they saw me after 5 years of graduation). I didn't explain the real reason for my disappearance because I don't know how to explain it. What would I say like "I ghosted you all because I want to be alone and never be found"? They even asked for my contact number and I gave it but I haven't opened my phone yet because I feel anxious about the incoming messages and I don't have the energy to catch up with everyone. How should I tell them that it's not about them but it's about me? I know I would end up alone and losing everyone around me because of this toxic behavior of mine but I don't feel anything right now, I just want to isolate myself from everyone 😣.
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I don't understand myself 😣
Relationship Stress / by Iamcha01
Last post
 January 25th, 2021
...See more I don't understand myself when it comes to friendships and relationships. I want to be needed but don't want the other person to get close or get attached to me. I want to connect with people but then if the relationship starts to get deeper, I push them away or stop being with them, like I did to my friends.
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