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ImJustSadHonestly
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I feel like I'm going insane
ADHD Support / by ImJustSadHonestly
Last post
 June 22nd, 2025
...See more Hey guys, I am coming back to 7Cups recently because Ive been in a panic for the last week. The world is crazy right now, and in about 3 days, I managed to make myself panic. Each day I see a new big headline and it stresses me the *** out. I want to find a good balance between staying informed, and NOT feeling like my heart's gonna jump out of my chest. Im having gagging fits and a low hunger, and nervous diarrhea after I eat. It's getting really bad. Talking with family and neighbors has really helped me, with my mom helping me dive deeper into my faith, something I was lacking in, and my neighbor sits with me and he lets me talk. I'm starting to calm down slowly, but its like an entity is constantly standing on my shoulders, banging my head demanding I remember that "THE WORLD IS ENDING HIDE AND BE SCARED!" There are calm moments and moments of high heart rate. Im just trying to live right now, be with my family, and I'm looking into therapy again. Is this an ADHD thing, ingesting so much political news that you feel like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders? Thanks friends.
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Worried on what it means (sequel to Dont know what to do after)
Relationship Stress / by ImJustSadHonestly
Last post
 March 6th, 2022
...See more So, if anyone saw my last post here, it was due to a breakup. It's all explained there. But as if recent, something odd has happened. Recently, she unblocked me on Instagram and has been browsing my stories. My mind immediately races for a "Why?". Does she just want to see how I'm holding up? Does she plan to message me and try to make up with me? Does she just miss me? I dont know what to think, and this has seriously hindered my healing process. I just want to know what she wants. I already let out all my tears, I yelled what u wanted to yell, but now with this, its interrupted everything. I check my phone every 5 seconds to see if she sees my stories. Some of me wants her to ask me back, in some corny attempt to show her that "there are permanent people in this life." Another part wants to message her first and ask why. But overall, I'm leaving the situation sitting there for now. If she does anything with unblocking me, so be it. But as of now, I dont know what to do.
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Dont know what to do after
Relationship Stress / by ImJustSadHonestly
Last post
 March 2nd, 2022
...See more So, last Saturday, my girlfriend broke up with me. Before I get into the breakup, let me say some other things. This girl was a purely online friend. Met her a year ago, and we became friends. I already had a crush on her. I invited her onto my podcast to do a solo episode. In that episode she says that she likes someone else. I had a big breakdown about it. I manically text my best friend about it. He threatens to post these messages to the server where we record the podcast if I persisted. I kept at it, so he posts it. She sees. She sends a formal response, I fall into a hole of depression for a couple of months and finally feel better and return. Me and her continue to be friends. I was over her. But we still called occasionally. I comforted her with problems she was facing, such as her entire family getting COVID, her own demons, etc. But during these calls, I noticed suspicious signs that...she was into me. Problem with that, she had a boyfriend at the time. Who was in the hospital. So, the time comes where she confesses to me. I deny. We still continue to be friends. A week after that ordeal, I hear from her that she broke up with her boyfriend. This years Valentine's Day come around, We're talking and I offer to be her Valentine. She accepts. We get together after that. 3 weeks of very passionate love, promises to wait for each other, professions of eternal love, etc. So, now I get to the break up. Last Saturday, she suddenly texts me in the night saying she cant do this anymore. She appeared to be very manic, as she usually is, and so I tried calming her down. She just kept saying that this was all her, and that she loves me, but just couldnt be with me. She was also tired of lying to her parents (she had strict parents, so they were never told of our online relationship). She tells me she couldve left me earlier, but didn't because she didn't want me to...stop breathing over her. Ironic considering in that moment she was breaking up with me. She finally says "get the hell out of my life" and blocks me on everything. Through a friend, I hear more. She said she broke up with me, and that "he wasnt bad, it was all me but just...the relationship wasnt happening." She also says her side of breaking up with me. She was laughing, ripping clothes, art, blocked me on everything, etc. And she says she gonna stop talking with people online, because then "this cycle will repeat." I thought I was fine. I held back some tears, went to tell all my friends, etc. But I thought I was fine. I expected her to break up with me. All of my friends expected it too. I had another girl, a girl I was already interested in before her. Very douchey move, but I saw it as more of...heartbreak insurance. But after that breakup, I find out shes into someone else. So, I was worried. My big fall-back plan was gone. Yesterday morning I woke up in a great mood. But then, during my art class, my teacher plays a song. A song she showed me. And I almost cracked. I held onto my table like my life depended on it. I start breathing heavily, I tear up like crazy. I go to grab my earbuds, pull them both out, pop them in, and blasted some metal. That's when I realized I'm far from being ok. And also lately I've been having...I dont know what to call them, visions? Like just, I'll be doing something and get a flash of something. And it's...her, texting me again, begging for forgiveness and saying she wants to try again. And if she's still as predictable as she is, she will do it. But, I dont know what I'll say. I really do love her. And in the vision, she's better. She gets help, as I am doing. But I just...dont know. I joined 7 Cups not over her, but because this whole relationship made me realize that I'm still in a bad headspace. Me and her both are. We weren't ready for a relationship, and we both knew it. We just both didn't want to be alone anymore. Every mistake we did towards each other in that relationship was followed up with a "I'm sorry, please don't leave me." So I guess...I dont know what to do anymore. All my hobbies, she was entwined with them. Every song I hear now is all of a sudden a love song. And so I just...am at a loss.
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