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Maybe Ive already disappeared
PathStep 30 Compassion hearts3,798 Forum posts780 Forum upvotes1,749 Current upvotes1,749 Age GroupTeen Last activeSeptember, 2026 Member sinceDecember 26, 2024
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I don't know why i'm here. 

I'm just existing.. 

floating untethered in a void full of stars. 

I've drifted so far from the planet I once called home. 

Where i've already been forgotten. 

It's dark and cold... but at least up here I'm free. 

The tears I shed float off into the infinite void of space. 

Saying goodbye was the hardest part. 

But maybe I'm still here... 

But maybe this is the last you'll ever hear of the lone astronaut. 




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Idk what I'm doing anymore..
General Support / by IzzyGamer
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 Monday
...See more Idk what I'm doing, I acc hate myself so much. I feel so alone. Everything just so hurts so much, I'm tired of everything. I feel like I'm behind everyone else. That I should know what I'm doing, that I should have my life together. And ik I'm still young but I feel like I should at least have things figured out.. or at least started to figure things out. I graduate in two years. And that feels like nothing. Idek where I want to go to college or what I want to study. I mean I have a general Idea but I'm still not sure.  I just feel so alone. I feel like I'm just useless and broken. I try so hard everyday but it never feels like it's enough. No one sees how much effort it takes for me to get through the day. How much everything weighs on me. And I've gotten so good at hiding how I feel that "I'm fine" is the automatic response to if I'm okay. I have no one who really cares, no one who bothers, I really am alone. I'm just a burden to everyone. I don't belong here, never have. I don't belong anywhere. I feel so dissociated every single day, I genuinely can't remember things anymore. Entire days feel foggy and distant, and I can barely remember the details of it all. Idk why my memory has been so bad. Even when I'm not dissociated I still can't remember things. It's acc so scary sometimes. I just wish things would make sense, I wish the pain would stop. 
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Mask of the Hidden
Poetry / by IzzyGamer
Last post
 August 27th
...See more Behind every story is a burden no one will ever see.  It's a demon that no person can flee.  Each word weaves itself into its own spiral of rhymes and lyrics.  But it will never be the words that show the full picture.  Ink on paper, words on a screen... Its a mask of its very own.  Behind it lays a valley of tears that has been left unknown.  Words can be a place of safe freedom.  Where protections feels mandatory for survival.  A world of adventures can unfold in a blink of an eye.  Where one can caught up in an intrinsic lie.  Hiding behind the page has always been easier.  Because its the unfamiliar that is the true threat.  Words have a voice that is like no other.  But always be wary of the hidden language of another.  For it lurks in the dungeon, waiting to be let out.  Hoping for the day its hidden message will finally be set free. 
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Space for Space?
Journals & Diaries / by IzzyGamer
Last post
 1 day ago
...See more Well... I'm not sure why I'm making this but I guess I decided to make a place where I can express how I feel. Or I guess just to write out all the chaos that's inside my head. Or just completely random things that have nothing at all to do with anything. 🙃 Since Ive never had a place where I've felt safe to express myself I guess this will my little corner of internet where I do feel safe. (Maybe)  I honestly don't mind replies, just be nice... Please (: 
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What's the point.
General Support / by IzzyGamer
Last post
 July 28th
...See more Why am I like this, I feel broken. I'm tired of having to deal with family. It's exhausting having to put up with people who make me feel worthless every single day. They can't ever just accept me for who I am. I'm never enough for them. I feel trapped. I so badly just want to get away from it all.  Everywhere I go I feel alone and ignored even here I feel like that. Whatever it's fine I'm already used to it anyway. At this point I've just stopped expecting anything from anyone. It all feels pointless. 
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Why is this so hard...
Self-Harm Recovery / by IzzyGamer
Last post
 June 17th
...See more ///trigger warning/// This isn't something I normally like talking about... But I guess I just needed to put this out there somewhere.  I relapsed back into sh again today... I was 30 days clean.. I think that's honestly the longest I've gone without cutting since I started doing it. Tbh I don't really know how I managed to make it that far to begin with. Today's just been a really bad day ngl.  There's just this constant battle in my mind about whether or not I really want to quit sh. Ik it's bad for me, but it's become the only thing that helps me cope. Nothing makes me happy anymore so I guess I ended up resorting back to the one thing that actually helps. I feel like there's a lot of stigma around sh which makes it so hard for me to want to quit or get help with this. I'm scared of what will happen or how people will react to this side of me.  I guess that's also why I've been so reluctant to post about this on here as well... There's this constant worry in the back of my mind that people will think I'm crazy or treat me differently because they know that I've been cutting myself. I feel like a burden for writing this idk why. It's just hard to live with all this constant worry around everything. :/
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