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Maybe Ive already disappeared
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I don't know why i'm here. 

I'm just existing.. 

floating untethered in a void full of stars. 

I've drifted so far from the planet I once called home. 

Where i've already been forgotten. 

It's dark and cold... but at least up here I'm free. 

The tears I shed float off into the infinite void of space. 

Saying goodbye was the hardest part. 

And maybe I'm still here... 

But maybe this is the last you'll ever hear of the lone astronaut. 










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I think I'm getting worse
Depression Support / by IzzyGamer
Last post
 September 25th
...See more Idk how this could be possible but I think I'm getting worse. My depression is getting really bad. Nothings working, nothing helps, nothing makes me happy. I haven't felt like myself lately. More so these past few days. Im losing myself. I feel like a burden for posting about this, but idk what else to do. I'm so lost and alone and scared... So so scared. Im terrified bc I can't remember things, and my memory keeps getting worse. I don't want to have to ask for help irl but if things don't change idk if I'll have much a choice. I can't keep doing this. 
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Idk what I'm doing anymore..
General Support / by IzzyGamer
Last post
 September 14th
...See more Idk what I'm doing, I acc hate myself so much. I feel so alone. Everything just so hurts so much, I'm tired of everything. I feel like I'm behind everyone else. That I should know what I'm doing, that I should have my life together. And ik I'm still young but I feel like I should at least have things figured out.. or at least started to figure things out. I graduate in two years. And that feels like nothing. Idek where I want to go to college or what I want to study. I mean I have a general Idea but I'm still not sure.  I just feel so alone. I feel like I'm just useless and broken. I try so hard everyday but it never feels like it's enough. No one sees how much effort it takes for me to get through the day. How much everything weighs on me. And I've gotten so good at hiding how I feel that "I'm fine" is the automatic response to if I'm okay. I have no one who really cares, no one who bothers, I really am alone. I'm just a burden to everyone. I don't belong here, never have. I don't belong anywhere. I feel so dissociated every single day, I genuinely can't remember things anymore. Entire days feel foggy and distant, and I can barely remember the details of it all. Idk why my memory has been so bad. Even when I'm not dissociated I still can't remember things. It's acc so scary sometimes. I just wish things would make sense, I wish the pain would stop. 
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Mask of the Hidden
Poetry / by IzzyGamer
Last post
 August 27th
...See more Behind every story is a burden no one will ever see.  It's a demon that no person can flee.  Each word weaves itself into its own spiral of rhymes and lyrics.  But it will never be the words that show the full picture.  Ink on paper, words on a screen... Its a mask of its very own.  Behind it lays a valley of tears that has been left unknown.  Words can be a place of safe freedom.  Where protections feels mandatory for survival.  A world of adventures can unfold in a blink of an eye.  Where one can caught up in an intrinsic lie.  Hiding behind the page has always been easier.  Because its the unfamiliar that is the true threat.  Words have a voice that is like no other.  But always be wary of the hidden language of another.  For it lurks in the dungeon, waiting to be let out.  Hoping for the day its hidden message will finally be set free. 
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Space for Space?
Journals & Diaries / by IzzyGamer
Last post
 51 minutes ago
...See more Well... I'm not sure why I'm making this but I guess I decided to make a place where I can express how I feel. Or I guess just to write out all the chaos that's inside my head. Or just completely random things that have nothing at all to do with anything. 🙃 Since Ive never had a place where I've felt safe to express myself I guess this will my little corner of internet where I do feel safe. (Maybe)  I honestly don't mind replies, just be nice... Please (: 
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What's the point.
General Support / by IzzyGamer
Last post
 July 28th
...See more Why am I like this, I feel broken. I'm tired of having to deal with family. It's exhausting having to put up with people who make me feel worthless every single day. They can't ever just accept me for who I am. I'm never enough for them. I feel trapped. I so badly just want to get away from it all.  Everywhere I go I feel alone and ignored even here I feel like that. Whatever it's fine I'm already used to it anyway. At this point I've just stopped expecting anything from anyone. It all feels pointless. 
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