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JanusPi
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PathStep 18 Compassion hearts733 Forum posts241 Forum upvotes509 Current upvotes509 Age GroupAdult Last activeAugust, 2026 Member sinceSeptember 14, 2023
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Hello! My name is Janus! I am currently in a bad situation in life and hope to be able to get some help. I have depression, social anxiety and also identity crisis. Although I am a very pessimistic person so it may be difficult to talk to me. But I really hope to make some friends if possible 💕. 





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I need good healthy food recipes please 🥹
Hobby Zone / by JanusPi
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 10 hours ago
...See more I’m trying to cook for myself while watching my weight. But all healthy food tastes sad… Please give me some recipes to cook please. Preferably light meals since I have a smaller appetite. THANK YOU 💕💕
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Getting rid of scars?
Self-Harm Recovery / by JanusPi
Last post
 April 28th
...See more I’ve been clean for around a month or two. And all my wounds became normal skin but it’s darker skin than the rest of my skin. So now I have a bunch of dark lines on my arm. Does anyone know what that is and have any ways to get rid of it? Thank you. 
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Struggling with loving
General Support / by JanusPi
Last post
 March 30th, 2025
...See more The last time I’ve had a crush on someone or even a hint of love towards someone was a long time ago. Now no matter how pretty someone is or how kind someone is, I don’t feel attracted at all. It’s as if I lost all sense of love. It really sucks because I want a love life too. But no matter what, I always hyper analyze others and never felt love towards another. Is it only me that is this way? It’s like I want love but can’t even love another. 
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I feel sane
General Support / by JanusPi
Last post
 March 14th, 2025
...See more So recently I got an opportunity to talk to a psychiatrist consultant online. Before that, I’ve never been to the doctor because of fear that my family finds out. The online psychiatrist was asking me a bunch of questions and said there’s no need for me to take those online tests to see if I’m depressed. The psychiatrist told me that it’s near for sure that I have severe depression. Somehow this made me feel kinda calm. I finally got an answer to my years of questioning whether I’m depressed. And now I’m deciding on whether to get treatment. So that’s another step to getting better. Not sure if I really will go though since the fee is quite expensive (around two weeks of food). And also the hospital is like 30 mins away. But anyways i don’t understand why I feel this way after finding out I have mental health problems. Logically, I should be breaking down in tears but rather I feel better.
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Why am I still doing it?
Self-Harm Recovery / by JanusPi
Last post
 January 6th, 2025
...See more Trigger Warning: Self Harm I was clean for a couple months. When i first started self harming, I did it because I felt human doing it. I used to be emotionless, and pain from self harming makes me feel alive. But now that I feel emotions again and I generally have different emotions unlike before, somehow I'm still doing it. I don't know why I do it. There's no triggers or anything, I just reach for the blade and start doing it. I don't understand why I'm doing it, even when I'm happy I still do it. At this point it just feels like a routine to me. What's worse is that when I'm nervous or anxious I start touching my scars and cuts because it made me feel comfortable. I hate it so much. I hate how I'm still doing it although I should be fine. I hate everything and I just want to live a normal life.
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Sadness
Poetry / by JanusPi
Last post
 April 26th, 2024
...See more Sadness Sorrow tears fall on my pillow of solitude, Aching heart cries to the moonlit sky, Darkness envelops, a shell of useless aptitude, Numbness grips the soul, drowning in my longing cry, Echoes of past sorrows linger in the depths of my being, Silent cries echo, unheard in the void in fleeing, Seeking solace in the never ending sightseeing. - JanusPi🥰💕 Hello! It’s been a while since I posted. I had fun writing this poem. See if you can find out why the poem is called sadness. (hint: the format of the poem🥰) Anyways, hope you have a lovely life!💕
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Lost Love
Poetry / by JanusPi
Last post
 April 28th
...See more Lost Love I lost you the moment I loved you. -JanusPi☺️💕 I’m trying out new unorthodox way of writing poetry. Hopefully you like it. Have a great life!💕
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Life
Poetry / by JanusPi
Last post
 February 29th, 2024
...See more Life Don’t live a life of happiness, Nor the life of fortune, But the life you’d live again and again. -JanusPi ☺️💕 I haven’t written poetry in a while. Hopefully you liked this one💕. Have a great life!
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