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Jellyv
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To whoever is going through the same thing
Relationship Stress / by Jellyv
Last post
 July 23rd, 2023
...See more I wrote this poem after I finally realised that my “perfect ex” isn’t actually so “perfect” title: “I deserve better” “you deserve better” was the most repeated words said to me ever since you left and everyone from my therapist to my grandma thought this is what suits the outcome best. see, of course I didn’t listen, god you even said it yourself but i really I didn’t feel any suspicion. that was because your other words kept repeating in my brain. “oh I still love you, jelly. I just don’t want to cause you any pain” you…will…always…love…me? ”oh I still have feelings for you, I just can’t stay here hurt you and remain” you..still…have..feelings? ”and all the good memories were true love, I just can’t lie to you and say they’ll stay the same” memories…of…our…true…love?? it sparked the little last hope of us coming back together, so even when you left coldly without turning I didn’t think “I deserve better” I thought I deserved you, and you’d come back soon realising there is nothing we can’t get through, but the phrase kept repeating from person to person and as days pass and you didn’t come back, it’s like I got slapped in the face, and was finally certain. you won’t be back, someone who loves me wouldn’t do that. im aware now why you wanted to sugarcoat the breakup with words ever so sweet, yes you didn’t want to hurt me but deep down you didn’t want to hurt yourself, and I understand that because I wouldn’t forgive me too if I were you myself. so when I told you about all the effort I did to keep you to stay, you coldly replied “I didn’t ask you to do all that” but that’s ok.. you didn’t ask me to do all that but I did it anyways because I came into your life to show you how true unconditional love should be portrayed. Something for you to keep, feel, and always embrace. ”I deserve better” there I said it loud and clear. I deserve someone who wouldn’t disappear. someone who would love me for me and would fight any hardships to keep us as “we” I deserve someone who wouldn’t feel obligated to give me love, they would give it to me because I am all they could think of. someone true and doesn’t lie, someone who would keep each promise until they die. someone that tries to keep me happy even if the days were gloomy and gray, and I deserve someone who if they truly love me…they’ll stay. Thank you for reading! I’m a beginner in poetry!!!
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I still care for my ex
Relationship Stress / by Jellyv
Last post
 July 9th, 2023
...See more So my ex has a really really traumatic childhood. She broke up with me bc she couldn’t express emotions anymore and now she keeps posting sooo much in social media about how she changed and became heartless and stuff…I am worried for her so I dont know if it’s a cry for help or I should let her be…
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I’m going through a confusing breakup
Relationship Stress / by Jellyv
Last post
 July 10th, 2023
...See more My girlfriend of one year broke up with me a month ago because she says she has something in here that’s not allowing her to really “love”. She is a very nice partner especially in the beginning. She’s supportive, loving, and caring but then she started to change on me a bit and as an anxious attachment style I would get so worried and talk to her about it. It was once, then twice when she cried…she said it’s something deep inside her she can’t get rid of. However, we ended up just fine until the last and third time I brought it up again when she suddenly changed overnight on me..she began to tell me she cringed over “pet names” and that if we were to be together she’d only be able to tell me she loves once a year. I am sooo confused because the day before this argument she was calling me her “wife” and “her everything” so after the break up I wanted to talk to her to clarify some things and she told me she still has feelings and she will always love me and care for me. She claims she is “not romantic” but when I bring up something romantic she did she will say “yes I did that in a romantic way and I wasn’t faking” talking to her that day I could tell she had a lot in her mind because of the way she responded to most questions. Since it was summer we had to say our byes and I said “I love you and I’ll miss you” to her she went “I love you too! And it’s ok we can meet up in summer break” i Don’t know what to do…her words are contradicting her actions because she started posting in social media about how “happy” she is and she never posts in social media..I’m in no contact with her right now and I might just send her a birthday wish but I seriously don’t know what’s the next move. I’m just left so hurt and confused..I would throw up my food and I wake up a lot at night.. ps: she is my first everything..and we shared a really really deep connection, so it’s really hard to “let go” and “move on”
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