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LightningHeart16
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How can I tell someone I'm dealing with severe depression?
Depression Support / by LightningHeart16
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 January 3rd, 2016
...See more Hey everyone I need some advice. I want to know how people that have dealt with depression how they let others like family or friends know what's going on. I've been struggling with depression for many years and this year has been the worst. My medication is no longer working, I am struggling to feel better and have really gone down hill these past few months. I've been slowly wanting more and more alone time to myself and no longer am hanging out with other friends. I have thought about doing things to myself sometimes...which is another reason why I want someone to talk to or call and I can trust if I ever do hit rock bottom. I have a real good friend I am thinking about telling. He's literally the only one I can trust now. He is my cousin (more like my brother). He was there for me on the worst day of my life (when my best friend died) I hung out with tonight and he can make me laugh no matter how horrible I feel inside, which is why I love hanging out with him...however I always want to bring up the topic to him, but it never seems like a good time. Either his parents are home, we are laughing, or things like that and it never seems to come out. I know I'll probably end up tearing up telling him which is why I want no one around when I do so. I don't know if I should text him and ask if I could talk to him alone sometime or just blurt it out to him. I also am so worried that hes going to hate me if I bring it up to him (i think it's the anxiety that's getting to me). Anyways, does anyone have any advice on what to do or tips with discussing it with people...I could really use some help with this. Thanks a ton. *hugs* means a lot.
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Don't know if I should accept her back into my circle of friends
Relationship Stress / by LightningHeart16
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 November 8th, 2015
...See more Hey everyone of 7CupsofTea I am on here to ask for some advice for dealing with a friend...well shes sort of not my friend. Anyways. I've had a really bad spell of depression throughout this year. It really made me change in my view and how I live my life. I'm seeking help now and I only keep a very small amount of people I trust to know about my ordeal. Anyways. I had this one friend of mine and after I went into this isolation phase which Im still dealing with and she turned her back on me. She talked so much crap about me to one of my friends when I was not around. I never felt so hurt to have a friend do that to me. Anyways she deleted me from her facebook, skype, ect... but now (2 months later) shes sending requests back. I'm such an accepting and understanding person, but I dont know if I should accept her back. Any suggestions. Sorry that it may sound like a stupid question. I just dont really have many people there to discuss things in life with at the moment. Any tips will be greatly appreciated. *hugs*
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Telling loved ones I am dealing with depression
Depression Support / by LightningHeart16
Last post
 October 25th, 2015
...See more Hello everyone on 7CupsOfTea I am thinking about telling someone that I am dealing with depression. I had a very difficult loss of a loved one early this year and I believe it has turned into depression. I have not gone to the doctor to seek help as money is very tight and I do not want to tell my parents. I know that may sound mean or something that i dont want my parents to know but i personally feel that they would not understand as I have tried hinting it before and it did not fly well. I am however planning on telling a few good friends/relatives of mine. I just really need someone to rely on that i could talk to once in awhile and just help me feel a bit better. I dont know how to tell people that i am dealing with this. I don't want them to feel hurt or upset at me. I have really started to isolate myself from others and dont enjoy doing things anymore like partying and stuff like that. My friends invite me often to do things and I just come up with so may excuses but I honestly just dont want to party. They are starting to get mad at me and a couple have resorted to "un-friending" me entirely which i feel is all my fault. I feel that this is somewhat of me grieving too. I have lost my best friend 2 months ago and a really good friend early this year and it has been very difficult. I grieve a lot when i am alone and try to hide it all when around others. any tips or advice on how to tell them would be very helpful or even tips on overcoming depression and grieving would be helpful too. thank you -Lightning
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How can I let people know what im going through?
Depression Support / by LightningHeart16
Last post
 September 1st, 2015
...See more Hey everyone. I am curious to find a way on how I can tell a friend/family that I'm dealing with depression. I dont want to be alone in this anymore...I have a 2 people who I am comfortable with telling about what is going on but I am terrified to do so as Ive never showed the "other side" of me before. I feel very bad to let them in to something like this but honestly things are just getting really bad and I want someone there. I do get "bad" thoughts sometimes when Im alone and I just want to dial their number or send them a text but I feel if I didn't explain what is going on first they wouldnt understand if I suddenly call them and am having a panic attack. I dont know how to explain to them what is going on or how they could help me. I just feel the need to say something yet Im scared to do so. I feel like such a burden to tell someone i want a helping hand through this. Any advice?
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I dont even know myself anymore.
Depression Support / by LightningHeart16
Last post
 August 31st, 2015
...See more Hey everyone. Whoever needs a hug, heres a virtual one *HUG*. I am posting on here because I feel like I have no other option. i feel like im losing control of everything now and I dont even kow myself anymore. I used to be this carefree, upbeat, positive minded girl up until this last year. Everything completely turned upside down. I look in the mirror and I dont even see myself in it. I look the same just dont have that determination and positive look in my eyes anymore. I have my closest friends who are off to college. I am very proud of them but I miss them so much. I hardly see them. They are guys but they are my cousins and we've always been very close. I constantly have nightmares of one of them dying due to having a classmate of mine killed at that same campus the previous year. Every time they are about to leave I give them a hug but it seems like neither of them understand how scared I really am. None of them know what i'm going through because I have learned so many ways to hide my emotions throughout the years. I really want to tell them what is going on but I feel horrible letting people down because of my own emotions/feelings. I dont know what to do anymore. They mean so much to me and it hurts me like nothing else to go to bed and see them die in front of me nearly every night. I recently had my best friend or my horse die when I was away for the night. I blame myself so much for not being there for her. No one knew that she was missing and Im usually the one who goes checks on all the animals every night but I didn't show up for that one night and she ended up dying. I feel so horrible for not being there and I miss her more then anything. All I want to do is be with her. I got the call from my grandpa finding her in the pasture and I was with my cousins and I felt like the world just ripped apart in front of me. Lastly for the past year all I've been getting comments on was how much weight I've lost. In reality I havent lost much at all but everyone keeps making comments to me. It hurts so much to go out to eat and all I hear is "get another order of ____", "You need to keep eating!" "You're all skin and bones". I look on the scale occasionally to see how much weight I do indeed lose or gain but thats just because Im curious. I dont have an eating disorder. I just dont eat when I'm not hungry. When I am upset or if I ate earlier I dont eat that large of a meal. I make up for it later but everyone says I am losing so much weight. I dont know if its because my aunt was put into the hospital for an eating disorder a few months ago and that made them think that I have one too. I just dont know how to make people stop forcing food down my throat and making those comments on my body. My parents dont understand what I'm going through and same with nearly everyone in my family. I have a hard time trusting people so I dont let many friends into whats really going through in my head. I dont know what to do anymore. I've been diagnosed with bad anxiety since I was a little girl and recently its just gotten out of control and depression has settled in. I am taking medication to help with the anxiety but it still is really rough to deal with. I dont have much money to go to the doctor either. I just wish there was a replay button in life to go back 12yrs ago...when things weren't all screwed up. I have thoughts at night that I know I shouldn't be having but I've been reaching a level to where I just dont think im going to have this great future I always dreamt about. I dont think I'll do anything to myself. I have emergency call list on my phone of the very few trusted friends I have who I'd call if I need help. Its really tough...I hope anyone else out there who is dealing with depression finds hope that things will get better. I never thought I would ever get depression and here I am... *Hugs*
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