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Mahd12
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Anti-Nihilist Muslim Man
PathStep 17 Compassion hearts4,227 Forum posts116 Forum upvotes215 Current upvotes215 Age GroupTeen Last activeNovember, 2026 Member sinceJanuary 9, 2026
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"The heart more than blood alone--bonding with the non-organic and caring for the damned"
"The right to maintain humanity is not archived on any doctrine--it is a right that you must fight against meaninglessness for"


May Allah forgive us all, and may He forgive me for my sins know bounds none

Qur'an 55:13: "Then which of your Lord's favors will you [Man and Jinn] both deny?"


I am Mahd12(or Mahmood)
I am 16(birthday!!) from the Middle East

I have lived through a lot and I am working on:
-Anger Issues/a lot of mood swings

-existential terror

-Returning to my religion

-Studying more often as I enjoy it; fighting severe procrastination

-Trying to live life better and do new things

-Trying to formulate my thoughts into a coherent philosophy

Hobbies:
-Writing prose or philosophical works

-Listening to music

-Building with Lego

-Not much else, trying to work on that

My triggers:

-i get triggered by s**ual stuff

-i get triggered by hateful things

-i get triggered by violence

if i leave a chat after hearing these it aint personal its just my mind starts saying things to me after them 

-pls just be nice!
-inform me if im being a bad friend ):

Chase the Sun!🌅🌅














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to bubblePerson5643
Pen Pals / by Mahd12
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1 day ago
...See more @bubblePerson5643how r u ?? i havent sen you in so looong
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"Therein the night sky are a multitude of monuments: stars beaming pure warmth, planets in revolution, and opalescent comets."
Poetry / by Mahd12
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Tuesday
...See more KEY: '...' messages are said by the traveler, whilst "..." messages are said by the loving one.  'Thirty-three thousand years I have wandered the Earth searching for sanctuary, and I have found not one warmth--every field iced over, every star cold... every person unforgiving and cruel!' "Where on Earth have you wandered?" 'I have been sailing the oceans! I have rode the waves! I ran across hills and flew above mountains! I've boarded trains, planes, cars and boats, yet no place provides me nearly as much warmth as my coat.' "Have you searched elsewhere?" 'The only difficulty is remembering where I have not searched, for I have searched all that is material, and all that is societal!' "The Earth is not material or hierarchies alone. Look within your soul. Look up at the stars." "Therein the night sky are a multitude of monuments: stars beaming pure warmth, planets in revolution, and opalescent comets."  "Yet no light, nor heat, nor burn, nor ice, nor cold, nor scorn--can match the love placed within you. Love is the blood that composes you. Love the light that beams from your soul. Love the heat that releases from your skin. Love the burns that mark humanity as itself. Love the ice that repels hatred. Love the cold that preserves kindness. Love the scorn to misery, to hate, to anger and to cold slate." 'Where do I find this love? It sounds distant to me... my years searching have not allowed me to gain one hair's worth.' "You must spread love to earn love. It will reciprocate back towards you." 'Will that not cancel it? Mathematics and logic dictate such.' "Love was never mathematical from origin, and will remain free from hard logic until its end." "Love your beacon and love your reward. Love for there is no better moment to do so than now, and now is always." 'How can such love, a mere feeling, tend to my wounds and seal my scars? Love alone cannot find me a home on Earth.' "No one limited you to the Earth. You were born to inherit the splendors of space, the stars your birthright, the moon your jewel. Love across all homes, whether that home found within yourself or found within others or found within the sky." "Love, for it is your humanity." 'Love I shall.'
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lily and miljan
Pen Pals / by Mahd12
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2 days ago
...See more @midnightlily00 @Miljan howve yall been i have not seen you in ages..
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My faith and my other issues.
Religion & Spirituality / by Mahd12
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July 24th
...See more Trigger warning: sexual stuff and mentions. so i have some sexual ocds and they really make my life a living nightmare sometimes, most times its dormant but when they do activiate my brain starts saying bad things that i dont like and then i am already always tired and stressed and then my existential intrusive thoughts come in and make me feel sad and terrible i mean i know troubles are a good thing, it is how Allah(swt) tests a good believer but i dont say im a good believer i very very rarely read Qur'an now and i cant pray on time anymore, sometimes i dont even pray
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vent
Religion & Spirituality / by Mahd12
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May 27th
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i feel so mean(trigger warning)
General Support / by Mahd12
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May 20th
...See more i just feel so *** mean in the chatrooms i try to help people or i enter the room(support room) to see someone venting and i cant help because i dont know what to say and ive been so tired and dry and i myself am getting better but now i feel selfish 
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'Look at me, Physics.' 'I want you to gaze upon the being you hold up, and fear it.'
Poetry / by Mahd12
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May 29th
...See more Trigger warning!!!: Blood, death, existential crises, religion, uses caps a lot Read at your own risk!! 'ENTROPY! I challenge you TO FIGHT ME! Disregard your conceptual being and materialize! I fear you no longer! STARE AT ME! STARE AT MY BARE BONES! STARE! See it, the scars that both blades, bullet, and YOU have left me!'  "Entropy does not wish to respond." 'NO! MY BATTERED BEING REMAINS SHAKEN AND MY BLOOD DISSONANT FROM MY NERVE FIBERS! I AM NOT DONE WITH YOU!' 'ENTROPY! You fear me! You are always under your father, Physics. If you... akin to rotting meat and swirling sin when compared to your other mathematical kin--does not wish to anger me... then I shall anger your father.'  "Entropy is not terrified nor is Entropy amused nor am EYE going to engage with such an elemental object, so puny, so soft, so insignificant, so bound to ME, and so terrified of the things you see, the smells you must ingest and the horrors you must cognitively, painfully--finitely savor."  'Bring me to your father. You are insufferable, vermin, beast, and hoarder! You do not deserve to be called anything human-like. Your nature is indescribably vile. You do not feel, I am talking to Thanatos' agent. Why waste my time, my 'elements' and my metal on a puny, unconscious... idea.'  "Entropy does not talk to a being that wastes." 'PHYSICS! I DO NOT FOLLOW YOU, I FOLLOW THE CREATOR, THE MERCY, AND THE LOVE THAT MADE YOU! I LOVE YOU PHYSICS! I LOVE MATHEMATICS AND I LOVE SCIENCE AND THE ARTS OF THOUGHT, CHEMISTRY, AND COGNITION! HEAR! Hear. Hear. Hear this call of mine, does it anger you? That my conscience loves you, even when you try to undermine me! DESTROY me! Does that anger you? Vile rodent you are, a cornerstone in the ecosystem of reality, but BOUND just like I AM to it!' - ... -  - Punished. -  - Punished by existing, just like me. You will die. I won't - 'Look at me, Physics.' - Why must EYE? Why must EYE? - 'I want you to gaze upon the being you hold up, and fear it.' 'Fear my ability to die. Fear the blood that spills when my arm rots from diseases you carry.'  - Why must EYE be scared? Just as my son, I am not bound to your diseases, or to your blood. In a way, EYE am quite amused at your attempt to evade me. - 'That is why you should be terrified of me. I am not attempting to evade you. I will end you. With all the conscience I have and the love born as a result. I follow GOD! Glory be to Him. He created you, just as he did me, but I was made solely to worship and to live well and love. You are the process that holds me. I am above you, but forever under God.' "Entropy... agrees. Shakily." - Physics cannot love nor fear. How am EYE scared? -  'That is consciousness.' 'Welcome to the most beautiful purgatory of all.' - NO. Physics, EYE, and my son... -  "I feel it. I am in terror. I do not wish to be human, Father." - Entropy? EYE need warmth. - 'Thermodynamics and homeostasis ***!' - nO -  " yeS EYE sEe.,. " 'I have materialized you. Now fight me. I am no longer scared of you. Because you do not own me. You will bleed for the first time in your immortal eternities. You will bleed again. And again. And again. Until you are dry.' 'Take out your thousands of blades. None will win against the hormones and emotions that you claim to run.'  'I am no longer scared of YOU, or of The Clock, or Flame. Or Nuclei. Or Pull. Or Push. Or Run.' - EYE am truly honored to fight philosophy itself. -  "ArE yOU hOnoREd to FiGHt uS?" 'In the name of my Creator alone.'
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