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Muse4apoem
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PathStep 212 Compassion hearts481 Forum posts165 Forum upvotes298 Current upvotes298 Age GroupAdult Last activeJuly, 2025 Member sinceMarch 30, 2024
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Small Community Big Problems
Work & Career / by Muse4apoem
Last post
 May 4th, 2025
...See more I have several skills but I do lack in experience in a few professional areas. The area I’m living in is so small I would have to drive at least an hour away. I was a nervous wreck in my interviews around where I live now I feel so stuck. I feel so horrible and a failure I feel lazy and I tried but I was so nervous. Why did I get so nervous? I cared so much about doing a good job I messed up. Now I feel stuck in my life. Will I have to move away? I don’t know what I’m asking right now. I’m still trying.
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Computer Music 90s and 00’s Music
Journals & Diaries / by Muse4apoem
Last post
 May 3rd, 2025
...See more I finally figured out how to put music on my iPhone from my 20 year old computer! I had to google everything from somewhere else of course. The machine won’t update anymore but I didn’t give up on it I had music on my computer and iTunes. It took me forever to work out how to update iTunes it didn’t have Apple Music. Anyways I’m thrilled because I have thousands of old cd’s I didn’t want to have to rebuy. (This is showing my age isn’t it? lol) Well now I can have my cheesy 90’s and 00’s music back yay! (this is going to take forever but worth it.)
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The Lone Nervous Wreck Interviewee
General Support / by Muse4apoem
Last post
 May 11th, 2025
...See more Anyone have advice on calming yourself before an interview? What do you do to relax yourself before you face them? What about if they tell you if you are picked you might get a second interview? Do you feel anxious about that? Do you always feel like you did a good job in the end? Do you feel like you just don’t know the outcome? Do you not feel prepared for the questions? Like strengths and weaknesses? Are you like me and think it’s pretty lame? You really don’t know unless you are face to face with the problem is my thought. I don’t say that of coarse. Outfit advice is much appreciated I’m a woman I wear women’s things. I welcome open decision of course. (Like patterns or color for interviews yes or no decides.) Thanks for the advice.
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Existential Dread *TW*
Depression Support / by Muse4apoem
Last post
 May 4th, 2025
...See more I quit my job due to stress I felt everyday my health was horrible. My health has improved so much. I fear that it’s declining again because of the unknown. I sleep a few hours a day to pass the time. I can still sleep most of the night. My skin cleared up I don’t have acne like I used to my migraines have improved a lot. I can’t afford my medication for them but I haven’t needed it. I was on strong medication for many years trying to find a cure. Trying to find out what stressed me out so bad. I knew deep down it was my job that was killing me deep down. I was even able to clean up my house I painted my living room and wood stain the floor. I have so much more energy now despite me sleeping all the time. I just get bored and depressed. I hang out with friends when they have time off and are able. (I feel so sad and wish I could make them proud.) I might be falling in love which is the last thing I need to do in the middle of this. I feel like such a loser. It’s been a little over a month I’m trying I’ve filled out some applications. Nothing has worked out. I had 2 interviews one job was too far away and one didn’t call back. I left my job for my health I feel so much better. I went to school I finished school I’m qualified I don’t know what people expect out of me. I want to leave this empty town it feels so hopeless. I feel like I’m waiting for a miracle how much longer?
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Working With Toxicity
Work & Career / by Muse4apoem
Last post
 September 29th, 2024
...See more This has gone on long enough and it’s time for a change it’s time for a better life! I just need a space to vent here because things are just getting ridiculous at work.  My coworkers are making my work environment toxic and I have been dealing with health issues. So I have left early last week because of that. Sunday I felt very ill after work but I didn’t leave early but I did take a nap after work. I don’t have my medication yet but I’m hoping to have it today. I’ve been resting on and off before I went to school yesterday.  I’m actually out of my normal routine but I’m not looking for pity on here. I’m trying to find my routine gradually it’s rough but I did expect to get sick from my usual illness.  Anyways like I was saying I’m going back to school this is my 3rd week in. I’m now getting into what days I need off. I have to drive a hour away in the evenings twice a week with only one day in between.  I work mornings so this is a BIG adjustment for me getting home when I’m usually going to bed. So my coworkers want to “take pictures” of things that aren’t getting done while I’m gone. So you can’t just do these tasks and not complain about it? Other people can’t do these tasks? The past two times I’ve been gone and come back I’ve had extra things to do. Those tasks are considered extra anyways and other people could do them but aren’t. My boss hasn’t said one thing and it’s been 10 days from those “pictures.” I’m tired of the toxicity how does it make you look better to make others look bad? Explain? If I’m asked about it I’ll just ask about the extra tasks. Like how much longer are you putting this on me? Because I can’t handle anymore. I can only handle so much it’s one thing to handle extra work like I have been. Now I’m getting coworkers who want to be right on to you. I’ll decide if I want to stay while I’m going to school or change. I’ll change right in the middle of me going to school because I just can’t take it. I’m trying to better my life and get a career. I don’t want to live like this anymore. Or keep this job.
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I had to turn my notifications off!!!
Site Updates / by Muse4apoem
Last post
 August 13th, 2024
...See more I’m already in a stressful time in my life.  I know I’m sounding pretty sensitive right now. I don’t need new reply’s and likes from threads. This is why I’m not posting and interacting anymore also. When I open the app and see it I respond.  Why oh why do I have to shut off ALL NOTIFICATIONS??? We don’t have to option to just have only receive messages from therapist. This is all I want and need right now. THANK YOU!!! 
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What do you do for a living? Does it make a difference? Does it matter?
Icebreakers and Games / by Muse4apoem
Last post
 June 6th, 2024
...See more Do you like your job? Do you have dreams of something else? Do you feel you make a difference? Do you want to make a difference? Are you happy just clocking in and going home and that’s it? For example I’m a housekeeper at a hospital. I work on the long term care unit. I’m around old people all day. I have dreams of becoming a medical assistant. I’m going later in the summer/fall. I feel like I’m making a difference sometimes. I will try to help with tasks I’m allowed to do. Like putting on an old ladies earrings or necklaces. Help them change the tv channel or get batteries for remotes. Those are a few things I can think of.  I’m ready for a fresh start. I want to actually feel like I’m helping out more then I do.
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Favorite Flower Or Plant
Icebreakers and Games / by Muse4apoem
Last post
 May 16th, 2024
...See more What’s your favorite flower? I bring flowers into work sometimes from my garden. It gets sorta drab in the place so it brightens it up in the spring and summer. My favorite is roses! Especially pink roses! I don’t think plants can be really ugly lol! What’s your favorite flower? Or favorite plant? House plant you like?
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