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MyDarkesthour88
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You left me at the alter...My heart in my hand... I am tired and broken... Haunted by memories of... The life you've stolen...
PathStep 10 Compassion hearts110 Forum posts6 Forum upvotes13 Current upvotes13 Age GroupAdult Last activeJune, 2025 Member sinceJune 18, 2023
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I don't have many friends to talk to and my mental health has taken a toll with the recent changes that life brings. Just looking to vent and hope to get through this the best I can.










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Conditional Love
Relationship Stress / by MyDarkesthour88
Last post
 April 3rd, 2024
...See more I signed my soul away for conditional love. Now I cannot go back. In everything I promised to let go of and to forget the pain. Forgetting the extent of his love will be hard to swallow. It will now define the strength of this relationship. I am loyal. Trusting! Unconditional. ...Naive... I willing locked myself in this cage, because the love I hold for him will keep me a slave forever. 
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Rejection
Relationship Stress / by MyDarkesthour88
Last post
 August 28th, 2023
...See more I am your shadow, that small breeze that touches your neck. Always close and at your beck and call. I am waiting on your each and every whim. Your laughter is all I want to fill my ears. I want to hold your gaze and make you laugh. To feel your hands in my hair. Your smile. Then a wall was built between us and I struggled to climb it. I clawed at it and wished for you to help me break it down. I just wait now, all morning and all day. Holding onto that unconditional love. Safekeeping it for you. Nights grow lonely and cold. Still, the wall stands. Your words whispered to me are the only thing keeping me warm... I am not her. I hate my reflection because it is not her face. This love burns me to hang onto. It scorches and hurts, but I can't let go. I'm still waiting for the wall to come down... but I don't think you want that... I think you are waiting for her to come back to you. In all her perfection and youth. Waiting to feel alive again... You are waiting. Ready to cast me into the dark.
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How can I get over affair?
Relationship Stress / by MyDarkesthour88
Last post
 July 24th, 2023
...See more My spouse and I are trying to get back together after a month-long affair he had. He feels genuine and like he is trying to make us work, but I can't get over the matter. We have good days, but I feel heartbroken and betrayed most days. Knowing he was so close to someone else and threw what we had away easily. All the hurtful things he said still ring in my ears. He apologized and begged me to let it go. That he chose me over here. To move on, but how? How can you just shut it off? The jealousy and the pain of what happens after an affair?
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A little heartbroken here.
General Support / by MyDarkesthour88
Last post
 July 15th, 2023
...See more If I knew falling in love meant making myself vulnerable, then I would have guarded myself better. Like... I gave someone I trusted an instruction manual to control me and my emotions... but it turned out that they can't *** read.
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