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Oakshield
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PathStep 32 Compassion hearts27 Forum posts8 Forum upvotes24 Current upvotes24 Age GroupAdult Last activeDecember, 2020 Member sinceApril 12, 2019
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Stuck in a vicious cycle and cant break free
Depression Support / by Oakshield
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 December 1st, 2020
...See more I know i have suffered with depression for quite sometime now. Its always been there and i cant remember a time without it. I have just recently move in with my fiance and i should be happy and thrilled we are planning our wedding, but the thing is, im not. I dont feel anything exept numb. I feel isolated and alone, torn away from my friends and family to another area. They work the majority of the day and I am struggling to get any form of job. I am alone most days and more or less all day. The more i sit alone i can feel the wall that is depression crushing me and dragging me to the depths of the ocean, what scares me is i dont mind that it is. Like i have already accepted im done. I talk to my friends but everytime they ask me if im okay all i can reply with is im fine, because i feel its getting annoying for them hearing im depressed all the time... im just at my wits end.... help....
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On the edge of something
Depression Support / by Oakshield
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 February 20th, 2020
...See more Things have been relatively good lately... But i can feel myself being weighed down. It takes more effort to get out of bed, do things in general. For this first time in a long time, I had this overwhelming feeling to feel something other than the whirlwind in my head. I looked towards the old habbits of self harm and had to quickly distract myself. But i know these thoughts are there. The lsst time i went down thing path i was in a bad place. I dont want to be there again but i cant seem to stoo these feelings taking over. It scares me but i dont feel like i have the energy to really stop it. Especially when I am everyone elses go to for help and advise, i dont really have time for feeling like this...
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Stuck between a rock and a hard place
Depression Support / by Oakshield
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 July 1st, 2019
...See more Hey guys, Lately, I have found myself emotionless and stuck in this constant state of depression. Nothing i do brings me joy, laughter, even tears anymore. I fear i am far beyond broken at this point. I lie on my bed for hour staring into nothing and i just feel empty inside. Like everything i was has been scrapped away. I was going to book an appointmeny for the Doctors today but i backed out because i dont want to be on meds but i dont know what else to do. I dont want to do something stupid to try and feel anything but i am just so exhausted of being nothing. The days seem so pointless...
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Struggling to Human
Depression Support / by Oakshield
Last post
 April 15th, 2019
...See more Hey there, I am new to all this but I just need someone somewhere to understand me as I am getting to the point where I don't know how to cope. I am really struggling with people, my 'Friends' don't particularly bother with me. Its always me that has to put in the effort, ask them if they are okay, what's going on in their life but the never ask me in return or just check in. It makes me feel unimportant and insignificant. I feel numb all the time now like I stare off into space and it feels like 5 mins but has really been an hour or something and it is just like I hardly exist in this world. Being at Uni doesn't help, the people there only talk to me when they need help with their work and then they don't know who I am. There is one girl I am friends with but the friendship is so new I don't want to 'scare her off' if you get what I mean. I guess I'm just looking for someone to understand me and not leave like everyone else when it gets too difficult. There is much I want/need to speak about but no one sticks around long enough for me to talk. They talk and I listen but when it comes to the other way around when I need someone, suddenly there is no one... Sorry for the rant, i had to get it off my chest.
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