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OceanBlue722
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Hopelessness
Depression Support / by OceanBlue722
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 February 15th, 2021
...See more Sometimes I feel like I am just existing and going through the motions, like I’m just wasting away little by little. How do I start feeling meaning in my life? I am a Christian but I haven’t been practicing my faith for a while and sometimes I don’t feel like I can even find happiness in that, which I feel bad even saying.
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Lost
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by OceanBlue722
Last post
 August 9th, 2019
...See more I feel hopeless and no longer feel a sense of purpose. I
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Internal Conflict
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by OceanBlue722
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 January 22nd, 2019
...See more Im having problems with both my sexuality and the gay community as a whole. I do not fit into the mold of of what is considered the norm for a gay man. I struggle with OCD in regards to my health and am afraid of sickness, which ironically is unhealthy. HIV and other diseases are a real risk and my fear of it is one of a few obstacles keeping me from pursuing a relationship. Also, Im not okay with the idea of sharing my partner with other men in a sexual matter so having an open relationship isnt what I want, which seems to be hard to find in the gay community. I was in a relationship with a man recently but we kept floating between romance and plain old friendship for a few different reasons that have to do with personal convictions both of us have. We are still close friends but I want more in my life and I do not expect him to have a romantic relationship with me as thats not fair nor is that authentic. Are there any of you out there that can offer me some advice. I dont think what I want from a man is asking too much but Im afraid of trying for fear of being disappointed again. Thanks everyone!
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Things Change
Depression Support / by OceanBlue722
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 October 16th, 2018
...See more For me, Ive felt lonely for a while. Loneliness is crippling and it sparks anger and bitterness. That stuff festered in me for a long time and still does every now and then but honestly, once you face rejection so many times you begin to realize that you have to find comfort in the company of yourself and you start to learn to love yourself. You stop caring for the company of another person in your life and begin to like being alone. Thats what has happen to me anyways. Hopefully, you guys have a better experience than Ive had.
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Trapped
Depression Support / by OceanBlue722
Last post
 April 10th, 2018
...See more My depression doesnt get to me the way it once did but lately Ive experienced an issue Ive never dealt with before. Preface: I struggle with my sexuality and have for years but Ive come to a place in life where I dont want a romantic relationship with anyone at all. The dilemma Im facing is that I have two female friends who want date me but I dont want that with them (mostly because I just dont want a romantic relationship and not as much because of my struggle with my sexuality). Both know I have this struggle but both still seem to want me and Im getting very depressed about these friendships because they are becoming very awkward at this point and one of the girls is someone Ive known for 23 years and grew up with her. I dont have many friends (by choice) and the few I have seem to growing apart from me and it makes me feel like something is wrong with me and makes me feel very lonely and depressed. What should I do?
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