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SnappyTurtlegirl
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PathStep 10 Compassion hearts61 Forum posts38 Forum upvotes42 Current upvotes42 Age GroupAdult Last activeMarch, 2023 Member sinceJuly 15, 2020
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Depression and helping others
Depression Support / by SnappyTurtlegirl
Last post
 February 15th, 2023
...See more My depression and anger are spiking lately. I lack the privacy to vent in any other spaces because I have taken in family who was in a dangerous situation that they had to leave. My home feels like it's not my own and they are on all my social media. I don't want to air dirty laundry as their privacy is important but I just can't keep going like this. In addition tonthe stress caused by their situation I have the stress from making space for them here and them still just not getting it. I can't even articulate it properly here now. I'm just getting to a point where such little stuff is agitating me. I even tool the time to tell them what was bothering me today and even with that they just did it anyway. Like my feelings didn't matter. I know it was a dumb thi g to be upset about but that's how I felt and I eve said it and it just didn't matter. What am I supposed to do with that?!
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Highs and lows
Journals & Diaries / by SnappyTurtlegirl
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 March 19th, 2021
...See more In addition to how hard this year has already been, I already have a hard time with something bad happening right after something good. It can be anything; feeling excited for a party I'm planning, no one shows up. Bam, intense depression, wanting to be dead. Today, I was feeling good about a small accomplishment with training my dog and when a resident wanted me to "leave the area" because it was making her dog bark. I felt embarrassed. She further stated that she was going to stay until I was gone. Like, she thought I wouldn't leave if she didn't specifically watch me. I felt embarrassed, like I won't be able to accomplish my goal of becoming a professional dog trainer, like I was some POS for just being there. Now, I know that she has a right to request I love on keep things quieter and more peaceful (her dog and her neighbor dog were barking but I was working to control my dog so even when he did bark I was stopping him) but I felt like she could've been respectful and instead was treating me like a bad person for having the nerve to be there. I wasn't on her property of course but her back yard (fenced in) borders our school playground. My kid was playing and I was working on training. Now I feel like I can't use that (safe) space and just like I shouldn't even try to learn the trade anymore. I'm an adult but she treated me like a juvenile delinquent.
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Not so good anymore
Anxiety Support / by SnappyTurtlegirl
Last post
 December 5th, 2020
...See more I was doing well for a while. Between things shutting down again due to skyrocketing covid cases, cold weather starting, household projects that had to happen but no where near what we actually needed to do (couldn't because of multiple aspects of the pandemic), destruction of my personal property as well as feeling constantly intruded on. I feel like I am losing myself and I hate my family an living with them. Obviously I love them, but they are always taking and breaking my things to the point where I don't have anything of my own that is just left the way I want it or available to use when I'm ready for it. My son is such a little sneak, he's not doing what he's supposed to during virtual school so I had to move him back out to the common area if the house. I just hate everything right now! I don't want to live like this anymore. I want to live alone! I've even told my husband this. I told him they are breaking me lol. I just want to hibernate so I don't do/say anything regrettable. (I don't really mean suicide I just mean anything over the top and petty; breaking my son's stuff in front of him "so he sees how it feels" etc.) I have already threatened to leave or kick anyone out of the house if they ever do certain disgusting things EVER again (not getting into what it was, they know, I was very clear about it with them)
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Trying to cope
Anxiety Support / by SnappyTurtlegirl
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 August 6th, 2020
...See more I'm starting to worry that I'm getting sick. I was at a funeral over the weekend and someone hugged me without a mask on and without permission. It was great catching up with people but I was not thrilled about that part. Yesterday I woke up with congestion and a headache and today the congestion. Last night I woke up to turn over, felt a couple heart palpitations and it brought on a fairly minor panic attack. I just kept focused on my breathing and every time I filled my lungs, I pointed out how nice and full of air they were, how good it felt that it meant I wasn't having "trouble breathing". I'm not sure how long it took, but eventually I calmed and went to sleep. I have a lot of tightness in my Bach and around my ribs but that is pretty common for me. I also checked my temperature yesterday and it was slightly elevated. Not quite fever range but enough to make me worry more. I'm supposed to spend time with my friend who is here for the funeral (it was his dad that passed away) before he leaves the country again. I worry that I should cancel or postpone. I'm going to check my temp again today and we'll see what it says.
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Still struggling
Anxiety Support / by SnappyTurtlegirl
Last post
 July 29th, 2020
...See more I have been working on calming my anxiety for a few weeks and for the most part am feeling better. I also was sick and am getting better from that too. The 2 problems were making each other worse for a bit because I didn't realize that I was sick at first so I thought it was all anxiety. I'm noticing today that I still feel that flippy stomach feeling that makes me uncomfortable. I have a few things coming up on the weekend that I'm not looking forward to. A birthday gathering that I wish they would stop trying to have during a pandemic and a funeral that will have rules because of the pandemic. I've never been to a funeral where you can't hug people before so I don't know what to do with that. Why do they feel compelled to have adult birthday parties while people are still waiting to bury their dead loved ones?! I really don't get that.
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