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Soui19
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PathStep 2 Compassion hearts30 Forum posts5 Forum upvotes9 Current upvotes9 Age GroupAdult Last activeApril, 2026 Member sinceApril 10, 2019
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Relationship struggle
General Support / by Soui19
Last post
 April 24th
...See more I’m going through a really painful situation and I need some perspective. I was in a relationship with someone I love very much. We care deeply about each other, but we come from different religions (I’m Muslim and he’s Christian) and we live in Egypt, where that makes things very complicated legally and socially. Recently I travelled to the city he lives in because that’s where he works. He didn’t want to move to my city because everything for him is there. We tried to rent a place together there, but we got into serious trouble with the police because of our situation, and we were forced to leave. After that, everything became much more stressful and scary for both of us. I’ve been struggling a lot mentally since then and I ended up hurting myself. When he found out, he said he didn’t want to cause me more pain or problems and that there is no real solution for us, so he thinks we should stay away from each other. We had a very emotional call and ended up breaking up. We were both sad and neither of us wanted to hang up, but eventually we did. Logically I understand why he thinks this way, but emotionally I feel like I can’t live without him. At the same time, I also know the relationship is extremely complicated.
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General Support / by Soui19
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 November 25th, 2025
...See more I was engaged to someone I truly loved, but our relationship became very confusing and emotionally hard for me. He used to smoke hash before we got serious, and he always told me he stopped. But every time we traveled, he would crave smoking again. His old friends kept calling him a lot, and he said he didn't want to “lose them because he might need them one day.” This made me feel unsafe and unsure if he was actually staying clean. During conflicts, he often became silent, defensive, and emotionally distant. If we fought, he would shut down and give me the silent treatment until I talk and apologize. I’m someone with very strong emotions and this dynamic made me feel unstable and constantly worried. Two weeks ago we had a big argument because he went to those friends house. I exploded and told him very bad words. He gave me silent treatment for 7 days. I called him to end things between us. He said OK. Since then it’s been 16 days of no contact. He didn’t block me, but he didn’t try to reach me either. Now I’m feeling guilty because I kept doubting his honesty about smoking and his friends and because of my impulsivity.
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Relationship Stress / by Soui19
Last post
 November 17th, 2025
...See more Hi...I was engaged to someone I truly loved, but our relationship became very confusing and emotionally hard for me. He used to smoke hash before we got serious, and he always told me he stopped. But every time we traveled, he would crave smoking again. His old friends kept calling him a lot, and he said he didn't want to “lose them because he might need them one day.” This made me feel unsafe and unsure if he was actually staying clean. During conflicts, he often became silent, defensive, and emotionally distant. If we fought, he would shut down and give me the silent treatment until I talk and apologize. I’m someone with very strong emotions and this dynamic made me feel unstable and constantly worried. Two weeks ago we had a big argument because he went to those friends house. I exploded and told him very bad words. He gave me silent treatment for 7 days. I called him to end things between us. He said OK. Since then it’s been 16 days of no contact. He didn’t block me, but he didn’t try to reach me either. Now I’m feeling guilty because I kept doubting his honesty about smoking and his friends and because of my impulsivity.
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