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anonymousturtle1121
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Anxiety and SH - really really need advice
Self-Harm Recovery / by anonymousturtle1121
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 April 15th, 2024
...See more Ive had depression for a long time. I never actually self harmed until really recently, and I don’t even know if it’s considered self harm, I would just scratch at any parts of myself until they turned red or felt like it burned. either way, I’ve been trying not to do this bad habit, and it’s just really really hard. I have pretty bad anxiety and little things cause me to panic really easily. Right now im dealing with some relationship issues and just the anxiety around my relationship issues and wanting that feeling of anxiety to go away, but not wanting to take out those emotions on my boyfriend or other people, I don’t know what to do with those feelings. I don’t want to take out this anxiety negatively on my boyfriend, especially when he is already busy and dealing with his own issues. And, it causes us to spiral further down a relationship rabbit hole and my anxiety gets worse. But then, if I sit with it, I don’t know where to put it. Without resolving it or “taking it out” on someone or something, it sits there giving me the jitters and I can’t think straight or focus at all. I start physically shaking and I just keep falling down a spiral of negativity. And that anxiety when it starts to build up and become too much, i take it out on myself to make myself feel better. And for the longest time, even right now, I feel like taking it out on myself instead of other people or instead of sitting with it is the best option for everyone. But it’s so hard because I want to find a healthier way to cope, this one just seems the easiest. My boyfriend has told me that I should look into therapy but, without going into the details of my situation too much, that’s not an option right now. Among the self harm, there are other thoughts that I don’t know if I should talk about here. But assuming that anyone reading this can see in between the lines, those thoughts haven’t just come and go like before for me, the emotions are piling up and it’s hard to keep them from leaving at all. Even when im in a situation where im “supposed” to feel happy I just can’t. This- it’s the only thing I ever think about anymore and I don’t know what to do. I don’t feel like I have any more options left to make the pain go away.
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relationship anxiety
Relationship Stress / by anonymousturtle1121
Last post
 March 25th, 2024
...See more recently i have found that i tend to get anxious when my bf does not reply to my texts or when he seems disinterested when i try to converse with him or talk to him. He is really busy with some other commitments right now, but a lot of the time i feel that it would be nice to be told that i am enough or that I am a priority in his life, or just to be acknowledged? he does that sometimes, but in general he is pretty quiet, not confrontational, and very old-school to a point where he really only uses his phone to text me (which is a reason why our texts seem one sided to me, but it still makes me anxious a lot). I want to try to get over this relationship anxiety and make it go away because it causes us to argue when I’m anxious/upset about something, and neither of us know how to communicate. I just don’t really know what to do. Is this a me problem? Is this a communication problem? Everything is so confusing.
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