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Trauma Support / by breadato
Last post
 February 27th, 2021
...See more So I triggered myself by listening to a song that triggers me I purposely looked for the exact video to see if now I'm stronger. Spoiler I'mn't. Basically I thought i was stronger cause for a couple of weeks I haven't had a single panic attack. All I learnt was a. On my own I will never get over the song b. Time hasn't solved anything I'm pretty sure its just made it worse c. I'm stupid d. The entire song triggers me no just the chorus. So a while back when I was 10 my school had a play for year 6s and we had songs in it the entire class had to sing (dear god I'm strong I had to listen to and lip sync a song that triggers me for an entire week) the greatest show there were like leaders or the main singers that would sing throughout whilst the rest would only sing the chorus god I don't think I can say more but basically I was singing quietly because I hate singing because I get easily embarrassed and I suck at writing this I'm crying anyways I had a panic attack whcih lasted god knows how long it was the longest I think it lasted 30 minutes or maybe more it was from som time during class to the end of lunch time. So now its one of my triggers. I'm so incredibly stupid. I honestly hate my year 6 teacher and the year 5 teacher (who thank the gods wasn't my teacher her voice alone makes me cry and want to throw up and have a panic attack I'm not kidding or being rude that's actually what happens whenever she teaches us) and i wish I could just forget my life
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Counting up and down
Self-Harm Recovery / by breadato
Last post
 February 24th, 2021
...See more I honestly love using apps that track how long I've been clean it's nice makes me feel like I've actually accomplished something plus I'm pretty forgetful. Though I hate how I'm so scared that my achievements are gonna get sister ripped away from me if i relapse and ill end up back on 0. Though that may be because of the community (on said app) and how you achieve with others so I end with a sense of familiarity and group. I'm determined to get to a week and try to get there instead of just forgetting about my problem because I'm on a break and actually celebrate unlike every other time
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February 8th 2021
Self-Harm Recovery / by breadato
Last post
 February 10th, 2021
...See more TRIGGER WARNING today was the day that my closest friends would have read my su***de note if i did commit. I wrote this sometime in January before the 11th when I was at my lowest and not even sh could help. But I lived and I thank that today was my a hard day to keep from relapse. Else I wouldn't have remembered. I refuse to relalpse today on February 8th 2021!
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Hi (maybe triggering?)
Self-Harm Recovery / by breadato
Last post
 February 25th, 2021
...See more I'm Alex Liore I first started self harming when I was 11 or 10 I I really remember i was feeling really numb and cause I was practically raised by the Internet I already knew what sh was. My favourite colour is blue. My deadname is also gender neutral but i hate my parents and family so yeah
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