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brightTalker8266
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I'm so tired
Depression Support / by brightTalker8266
Last post
 January 17th, 2024
...See more I'm so tired of everything I don't know where to start but all I know is I'm so so tired
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Is it normal to be jealous?
Relationship Stress / by brightTalker8266
Last post
 December 30th, 2023
...See more My boyfriend and I had been together for almost 2 years. We used to see each other everyday but due to work, I have to move and we can only see each other at most once a week. We did tried and ring each other everyday but there are days where I feel like he just have too many people that he need to spend time with. I am a person who loves to stay at home most of the time and he always catch up/ have coffee with his friends. For example, he will ring me after work for about an hour and go gaming with his friends/ family. There's just always plans after ringing me. I agreed that he need to spend time with friends and family, but I just hope that he has one whole evening just to talk to me and stuff. Another example is, we are planning for a holiday. We don't have any locations in mind yet, but I did told him I would love to go to Norway before. And he kind of forget about it. And recently he wanted to bring his mom for a holiday too and the place he picked is Norway. When I heard it, my heart sinked. I told him that I would loved to go Norway before and right now he is planning to go with his mom. I feel he just forget about what I told him. He usually never tell me if he will go for coffee with a friend or not. He will just go and I usually found out the next day when we were talking. I don't think he need to let me know his schedule for the day, but I got jealous sometimes. I know he won't cheat but I would be really happy if he let me know when he has coffee with his friends. We are planning to move in together but it's going to take a while before that happens. We talked about my jealousy before and we did agree that it will be better once we moved in together, but I don't feel great before that. Is it okay to be this jealous? Or am I being too much?
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I don't know what to do
Trauma Support / by brightTalker8266
Last post
 December 28th, 2023
...See more I'm iving with my sister abroad. She was recently diagnosed with adhd and was having really serious drinking issues. She used to try and drink her problems away before she was diagnosed with adhd. She did tried to kill herself once by alcohol overdose herself. After getting medication for adhd, she said she will stop drinking. She said she went to AA everyweek and I didn't see her taking alcohol anymore. Last week, I was away for a few days and found a zero alcohol beer can in her room. She did drank some sparkling wine without alcohol over the holiday too. I went out to my room just now and smell a really strong smell from her room. I'm can't be 100% sure if that's the tabacco smell or not but it smells like it. I did tried to talk to her about it and asked her how she's doing. But we need to work in the day and in the evening she would usually stay in her room. We don't get along too well most of the time because sometimes the things that she said can be a bit hurtful. For example, when I told her that I enjoyed watching comedy she would said I had a sad life and that's the reason why I loved watching comedy to cheer myself up. I may be a bit oversensitive but I really don't like it when she said that. Even that's the case, I don't want to lose her too. She's my only siblings and I have the responsibility to take good care of her. I don't know what I can do. I don't want her to try and kill herself by overdosing anything. When I smell the tabacco like smell from her room, the moment when I found her overdosing herself comes to my mind. I can see her getting incubated in the hospital when the doctor was trying to save her. I can't seems to get rid of the picture of that out of my head. It has been few months since I often had nightmare about that day when I found her overdosing herself. I'm really scared and I don't know what to do.
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It's Christmas day
Depression Support / by brightTalker8266
Last post
 December 26th, 2023
...See more I'm an immigrant working abroad. Today is Christmas day. I looked out the window and saw the Christmas light around my neighbour's house. The light of the living room is lit and I can see the family is watching TV together besides the fireplace from the window. The ornament of the Christmas tree in their living room is so beautiful. The kids running around, and the parents are busy preparing food for Christmas dinner And I am at my home, eating dinner by myself. My life isn't too bad. It's just a bit lonely, and I felt that hard especially on Christmas day. Where all my friends have their own family to spend time with. How I wished, I have someone to spend time with on Christmas.
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Am I asking too much from my loved ones?
Depression Support / by brightTalker8266
Last post
 December 11th, 2023
...See more I used to be a very cheerful, happy person back when I'm in college. I have friends to talk to, not worrying about bills.... After that, I moved to the other side of the country because of the job and I thought it's easier for me to go to the office. Unfortunately it will took me way too long to travel as I don't have a car so I'm working from home all the time. I'm an immigrant and even though my sister is living with me, we don't really talk a lot as she will be back only late in the night due to commuting to work too. I used to look forward to this job a lot, but after starting this job, I don't really enjoy it because everyone is really experienced and i can't really talked when they were talking about their past experience with each other. Most of them have family so they don't usually hang out after work. I met them once in the office and they are nice people. I know I have a pretty decent life and I don't know if I am asking too much, but I just don't feel like being in a team with them. When they are talking about their kids, I can't really say anything, because Im the same age as their kids! I don't know how to make conversation with them. I feel overwhelmed with adulthood. Every month I struggled to save money for a car. I spend money only on stuff I need but I have lots of bills that I need to pay and I just don't know how to pay everything and manage to save. Because I moved, now my boyfriend and I live quite far from each other, so we can't see each other that much too. We can still travel to see each other and he is the only person that I can talk to about how I feel. But it's almost Christmas and he is quite a person who loves going for coffee with friends and stuff, so he told me that he has some plans ahead so we kind of don't see each other that much this month. Few months ago, my sister was trying to kill herself and everyone was asking about how she was doing. I'm living abroad and my parents don't really ask about how my work is anymore when I was calling them. All they ask is how my sister is doing and stuff about her. I feel like they forget about me when I was a kid too because my sister was always sick. But I understand my sister really need them. I know that I sounds like I wanted attention from my loved ones, but I kind of feel like everyone just forgets about me. I'm not the priority for them. Im always their second choice. I just feel no energy in doing anything and always wanted to cry recently. I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe it's the weather, because it's winter and it gets dark really early. I don't really go out a lot and maybe I feel isolated. I tried go on movies or have a meal by myself to try and make myself feel better but I just don't feel like having the energy to do that. Sometimes, I lie on my bed and would just hope I don't wake up anymore. Everyone just forgets about me anyway. Is it ok to feel that way? Am I asking too much for attention from my loved ones?
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