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Biggest betrayal of my life

General Support / by celine1288

November 4th, 2025

...See more I'm facing the biggest betrayal in my whole life. I loved a person for 4 years nearly(since 2022), from one side cuz firstly it was secret and cuz i was ugly by the time and that person is so perfect that he was out of my league. I didn't see or talk to him for 3 years. Then in June 2025 i was seriously depressed from missing him to the point i nearly ruined my whole school year and missed my opportunity to go the school of excellent student (the best school in our country) Then somehow i did a VERY BIG AND SMART PLAN to the point we became together for nearly 4 months. One day we had a little misunderstanding and he blocked me. My bestfriend and classmate saw me crying, screaming and har/ming myself, and my health state became terrible. She promised me she'll help but ended up‼️‼️‼️ Telling him some lies i said, whenever he asks if he should get back with me she says no,whenever he asks how i'm i doing she says VERY FINE even if she saw that i wasn't even able to leave my bed for 2 weeks, and i got a a chronic stomach disease called irritable bowel syndrome I think (one of the reasons is terrible mental health) Worst part is that i'm sure 99% they are together now, from a love note he posted and tagged her in it. During the weeks where i wasn't even able to leave bed they got to know each other and develop feelings. How on earth! Ur friend of years who sacrificed everything for you and that u promised her is dying, and you are flirting with the love of her life and ruining their relationship. I don't care about him as much as I care about her. Yesterday we were talking about smtng similar and she was swearing that from the second her friend tells her she has crush on someone for 2 seconds she won't even look at him again. When i asked her why are they talking even if the reason they started talking about is ended and asked her to block him and she started gaslighting me and telling me he asks her about me everyday and he is still thinking about me etc. I'm dying actually. My mental health is 0, me health is ruined. My school year is also ruined. How can i get out of this situation. Is there any solution i do about them, or at least how can i heal??

I'm attached to someone i can't have.

7 Cups Online Therapy / by celine1288

October 2nd, 2025

...See more hello I’d like to explain my situation so you can understand what I’m dealing with and help me. I’ve been emotionally attached to one boy (I’ll call him “S.”) We only talked for a few months in the first year i knew him but it was a oni sided love. for about four years, since i was 11 and it became my main hope and a source of motivation. for years I lived a double life in my head: I imagined a future with him, rehearsed scenes of us together, and told myself that if I became pretty he would love me back. that fantasy kept me going through hard times, and I invested a lot of energy into it. about 3 months ago, i created a fake account to approach him and it worked perfectly since it was him who asked my fake account '' i'll name her E''to be his gf. It was kinda an upgraded version of me, my face, with different hair and eye colour. Same voice, same personality same everything. ae never doubted anything. Even with the fake account who was peak pretty, peak personality he acted distant a few times. til the day he decided to leave her with no excuse i said who i am. he had an insane reaction '' according to what he said and the picture of himself crying''. he oscillated between begging, confessing love, asking me to stay in the character and name of "E" and pushing me away. at times he told me he wanted me as his wife and at other times he said he couldn’t, or that his heart belonged to the fantasy he had. all of this has been catastrophic for me i feel a mix of grief and loss (because the imagined future collapsed), shame and humiliation (because it was all messy and exposed online), anger at him for his inconsistency and at myself for investing so much, relief and a strange freedom at moments when I realize I can end it, but mostly extreme attachment I still can’t imagine being with someone else. I’ve been crying uncontrollably, losing appetite, having trouble sleeping, and absenting to school I feel stuck between two conflicting urges I want to block him and cut contact to protect myself, but and I also desperately want weekly contact or any small sign that keeps my hope alive. I can’t rely on logic alone because this attachment is built into my identity and my daily routine. I need help to: manage the intense craving for contact how to reduce the urge to respond or to send photos, and how to refuse requests safely and to set boundaries and keep them ways to stop being manipulated and to maintain my dignity and especially how to deal with shame and self-blame I feel ridiculous and embarrassed I need help rebuilding self esteem i'm ugly and from a lower class. he's the opposite, if i was mature when it att started i wouldn't love someone out of my league. but then i remember that even my fake account he decided to leave her. .i feel i'd never love someone this way. our community is so unfair i'd be forced to marry an ugly man in my dad's age. We talked yesterday and he said he doesn't and he won't ever have any feelings for me at all I got into a new horrible school where i don't know anyone i'm more depressed and alone. I'd rather die than all that.

I'm attached to someone i can't have.

Motivation & Accountability / by celine1288

September 27th, 2025

...See more hello I’d like to explain my situation so you can understand what I’m dealing with and help me. I’ve been emotionally attached to one boy (I’ll call him “S.”) We only talked for a few months in the first year i knew him but it was a oni sided love. for about four years, since i was 11 and it became my main hope and a source of motivation. for years I lived a double life in my head: I imagined a future with him, rehearsed scenes of us together, and told myself that if I became pretty he would love me back. that fantasy kept me going through hard times, and I invested a lot of energy into it. about 3 months ago, i created a fake account to approach him and it worked perfectly since it was him who asked my fake account '' i'll name her E''to be his gf. It was kinda an upgraded version of me, my face, with different hair and eye colour. Same voice, same personality same everything. ae never doubted anything. Even with the fake account who was peak pretty, peak personality he acted distant a few times. til the day he decided to leave her with no excuse i said who i am. he had an insane reaction '' according to what he said and the picture of himself crying''. he oscillated between begging, confessing love, asking me to stay in the character and name of "E" and pushing me away. at times he told me he wanted me as his wife and at other times he said he couldn’t, or that his heart belonged to the fantasy he had. all of this has been catastrophic for me i feel a mix of grief and loss (because the imagined future collapsed), shame and humiliation (because it was all messy and exposed online), anger at him for his inconsistency and at myself for investing so much, relief and a strange freedom at moments when I realize I can end it, but mostly extreme attachment I still can’t imagine being with someone else. I’ve been crying uncontrollably, losing appetite, having trouble sleeping, and absenting to school I feel stuck between two conflicting urges I want to block him and cut contact to protect myself, but and I also desperately want weekly contact or any small sign that keeps my hope alive. I can’t rely on logic alone because this attachment is built into my identity and my daily routine. I need help to: manage the intense craving for contact how to reduce the urge to respond or to send photos, and how to refuse requests safely and to set boundaries and keep them ways to stop being manipulated and to maintain my dignity and especially how to deal with shame and self-blame I feel ridiculous and embarrassed I need help rebuilding self esteem i'm ugly and from a lower class. he's the opposite, if i was mature when it att started i wouldn't love someone out of my league. but then i remember that even my fake account he decided to leave her. .i feel i'd never love someone this way. our community is so unfair i'd be forced to marry an ugly man in my dad's age. We talked yesterday and he said he doesn't and he won't ever have any feelings for me at all I got into a new horrible school where i don't know anyone i'm more depressed and alone. I'd rather die than all that.

‼️‼️Can you read till the end, plese i'm a 15 yo who needs help for her mental health, i'm about to die‼️‼️

Anxiety Support / by celine1288

August 12th, 2025

...See more I’m a 15-year-old girl, good student. This year I worked extremely hard, my average was 19.40/20 (the student's average is 12). In finals, I got 19/20 in all subjects except Maths and Physics (only 12.25), which dropped my year average to 18.44. I had revised earlier, but in the last days before exams I was too exhausted and depressed to study. I know I did my best, but my mental health was bad. I got rejected from the excellence school and moved on. But yesterday, my dad said he can’t pay my normal school fees and that if I had worked a bit harder, I could’ve gotten into an excellence school for free. Now I feel crushed. I gave my best to improve myself, to get better results but got nothing back except exhaustion, sickness, shame, and disappointment. A big part of my distraction was an obsession I’ve had for 3 years with a situationship and fear of not seeing him again. I planned to return to my old school partly because of him, but I also applied to an excellence school (Lydex Benguerir – people from my country will know it) It's a school any student is dreaming about. It was built like the luxury schools we see in movies, only for good students. My work of the whole year was like nothing because of one exam. School starts in about 20 days and I’m feeling very depressed. I’m trying to convince myself staying in my city is better because: The excellence school has shared bedrooms (no privacy). I’d be too exhausted for college if I push too hard in high school. I'll study with people better than me. What's hurting me is that i ruined my year because of that situationship and in the end i got rejection from both, the guy and the excellence school. My depression because of him was the main reason for my distraction. I can't remember exactly if it was completely because of him or it was only a fake argument i told myself, or i was already weak that's why i got depressed easily. but i'm sure from one thing is that i gave my best, and if he wasn't here i might be accepted. If anyone has ways to mentally deal with this, please share. Also, if you know any free mental health help for minors (especially if parents don’t accept it), I’d be so grateful. Thanks for reading.

‼️‼️Can you read till the end, plesei'm a 15 yo who needs help for her mental health ‼️‼️

Anxiety Support / by celine1288

August 12th, 2025

...See more I’m a 15-year-old girl, good student. This year I worked extremely hard, my average was 19.40/20 (the student's average is 12). In finals, I got 19/20 in all subjects except Maths and Physics (only 12.25), which dropped my year average to 18.44. I had revised earlier, but in the last days before exams I was too exhausted and depressed to study. I know I did my best, but my mental health was bad. I got rejected from the excellence school and moved on. But yesterday, my dad said he can’t pay my normal school fees and that if I had worked a bit harder, I could’ve gotten into an excellence school for free. Now I feel crushed. I gave my best to improve myself, to get better results but got nothing back except exhaustion, sickness, shame, and disappointment. A big part of my distraction was an obsession I’ve had for 3 years with a situationship and fear of not seeing him again. I planned to return to my old school partly because of him, but I also applied to an excellence school (Lydex Benguerir – people from my country will know it) It's a school any student is dreaming about. It was built like the luxury schools we see in movies, only for good students. My work of the whole year was like nothing because of one exam. School starts in about 20 days and I’m feeling very depressed. I’m trying to convince myself staying in my city is better because: The excellence school has shared bedrooms (no privacy). I’d be too exhausted for college if I push too hard in high school. I'll study with people better than me. What's hurting me is that i ruined my year because of that situationship and in the end i got rejection from both, the guy and the excellence school. My depression because of him was the main reason for my distraction. I can't remember exactly if it was completely because of him or it was only a fake argument i told myself, or i was already weak that's why i got depressed easily. but i'm sure from one thing is that i gave my best, and if he wasn't here i might be accepted. If anyone has ways to mentally deal with this, please share. Also, if you know any free mental health help for minors (especially if parents don’t accept it), I’d be so grateful. Thanks for reading.

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