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Relationship Stress / by energeticYard610
Last post
 November 13th, 2025
...See more I've been married for almost 14 years. I got married when I was 19 years old and naive and stupid. for the longest time I thought my husband was really good to me Now looking back on it I see you I was just looking past things that I shouldn't have and blind a certain things and took a lot more than I should have because I was taught to speak quiet and not cause problems. When I was 24 and I got pregnant with my daughter, My youngest child he had a nervous breakdown for some reason why I honestly have no idea because our life was going better than it ever had at the moment. He's not been the same ever since to the point where he calls me to have a very severe nervous breakdown about 5 years ago and I'm not been able to heal from it because of still having to endure emotional abuse and over the past 5 years it's been off and on emotional and physical abuse. A lot of people at like I'm crazy for staying with a few people that know what's been going on there's maybe two that actually no because I'm afraid to tell people I have really bad health issues I can't work I can't get disability I've tried I've not fought enough for it because I'm just so exhausted and tired but because I'm young even though I have an autoimmune condition, and ADHD, and I've had a nervous breakdown, and a bunch of co morbid conditions that go along with my autoimmune condition, I've not been able to leave if I wanted to. he'll get so much better for a while and then go right back to the way that he was and it's just been the same pattern over and over again for years and I'm so exhausted and so tired and so fed up and I love my husband so much and I've gave him everything and tried to be everything that he needed and I'm always a problem I'm always asking for too much I'm always too loud to emotional have too many panic attacks have too many flashbacks I'm always a problem when I always but it feels like at least 8 out of 10 times I'm more of his problem than anything and I just I've tried to get through to him we can't afford therapy as badly as he needs it we can't afford it but I have done the work when I could when I could afford it I've done therapy I've done I've tried different medications I've learned how to deal with certain things up I've done a lot of work on my aunt was very little audience because not only did he mess up me he messed up our financial situation as well and he's constantly having to focus on making money so we don't lose everything for our kids and he doesn't have any time for me he doesn't have any time to help me heal and be what I need and learn how to be a better husband and it's just most days I just want to give up I'm so tired of fighting for something I don't feel like I'm ever going to get for this man.
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I feel so trapped
Relationship Stress / by energeticYard610
Last post
 February 19th, 2024
...See more My husband hasn't really tried in our marriage at all. We've been married 12 years and he's always just given me the bare minimum. He's never physically hurt me or cheated but I feel like I've been emotionally manipulated our entire marriage. I won't go into details because it's just a lot. He's never listened to me or tried to meet my needs and I've given him all of me for so long. Around 2 years ago, I wound up with long term withdrawal syndrome and akathesia. It was so bad for so long. It's gotten a lot better but I still can't handle being alone at night. It's like all the trauma from my childhood and everything just attacks me at night now and I get stuck in really bad panic episodes and have terrible suicidal thoughts. I begged him to start looking for a day shift job when I realized almost 2 years ago that if he's home at night and holding me, it helps tremendously. Otherwise, I really don't sleep. He just started trying a few months ago now that I'm already so broken I don't know if I can be fixed. He's having a hard time finding a first shift job. I've ran out of patience after trying for so long and getting nothing in return. I honestly would leave if I could but my mental and physical health prevents me from working to really take care of myself. I feel so trapped and I also kinda hate myself for wanting to leave now that he's trying but the more he tries, the more it doesn't feel like enough, and the more I realize he never learned anything about me. Am I being terrible for wanting to leave so bad?
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Medication Withdrawals
General Support / by energeticYard610
Last post
 December 16th, 2022
...See more My psychiatrist thought it would be ok for me to quit Zyprexa cold turkey because I only took it around 2 months. It was definitely not ok. I feel like I've been in *** for the past month. She keeps tells ng me it couldn't have caused withdrawals after that short of a period of time but all the online searches say otherwise. I'm feeling somewhat better just still extremely agitated. I'm praying it's finally ending cause I can't stand for my kids to even make noise.
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Waves of panic attacks for over a week and Akathesia.
Depression Support / by energeticYard610
Last post
 December 6th, 2022
...See more Has anyone dealt with Akathesia before caused by medication?
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Waves of panic attacks for over a week
Anxiety Support / by energeticYard610
Last post
 December 12th, 2022
...See more I've been having waves of panic attacks lasting 24 hours or longer for over a week now. I've never felt this way. I can't function. I can't even take care of my kids. Im so scared. The psychiatrist and it aren't helping. It started after I tried a new medication. I haven't taken it in 9 days and it still won't stop.
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My husband is always negative and has and acts like he get pissed at everything I say.
Relationship Stress / by energeticYard610
Last post
 March 7th, 2022
...See more I really feel like I can't do anything right. Everything I do or say seems to be wrong to him. I always get blamed for being to emotional and reading to much into everything but all I ever feel from him is negativity.
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Mom at the end of my rope with sons behavior
Family & Caregivers / by energeticYard610
Last post
 March 6th, 2022
...See more My son has always showedild ADHD signs but we don't want to put him on medication unless absolutely necessary. Lately his behavior has went downhill fast. He's been disrespectful, defiant, and causing disruptions in class. I got a message from his teacher today that he had been talking back, not listening, running around, and been loud when told to sit down. It broke me because I have no idea what to do with him. We've tried different forms of discipline, none of which work for long. We've tried our best to talk to him and get him to talk to us. We're looking into therapy for him. He's literally made his teacher, who's been amazing and patient with him, think he hates her because he's always angry. I'm also worried about his mental health because he's so hard on himself. He says he hates himself and he's only 8. I just really have no idea what to do.
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