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googie0901
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Birthday Anxiety
Anxiety Support / by googie0901
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 July 17th, 2021
...See more Today is my birthday and it's currently 1:40 AM. I've been crying since yesterday, we went to the mall to buy some things and I don't really know what became the trigger but I suddenly felt really low and hollow, like from my highest peak down to the lowest in span of minutes. I've been doing well the past week so I thought I was already fine, but then this happened and I feel guilty for accidentally being rude towards my mom yesterday. She didn't do nothing wrong and yet I treated her and my family in a rude way by not talking to any of them since yesterday. I feel like I was gonna burst out anytime. I can't stop crying. I went out few minutes ago for some fresh air and saw that they arranged chairs outside our house-for parties. I hate parties. I hate being stuck with a large number of people. I did told them I want my birthday to be a simple one. Just our family, or I just me since I badly want to be alone because I usually had anxiety attacks in front of a large crowd. I hate it. I hate it. I just wanna vanish from everyone's life. I wish they could forget about me and live a better life. I do know I'm bothersome. I've been thinking of getting some pills. My thoughts are in it again. I hate my birthday. I hate myself. I want to run away.
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Classes
Anxiety Support / by googie0901
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 May 3rd, 2021
...See more Hello. It's been more than six months and I still feel the same. Now it's getting worse. I don't even have the motivation or even feel like attending online classes. I feel suffocated. Misunderstood. Judged. Useless. I do pass my assessments but I don't really feel like attending synchronous classes. I can't even open my messaging apps because of anxiety and opening our online class site is already a hardwork for me. I don't think I have the power to join our synchronous classes anymore. Will anyone tell me if what I'm doing is okay? I feel so guilty. It's been weeks since I've got a good sleep. I sleep for 4 hours at most the past weeks. Would everything be okay even if I don't attend synchronous classes? I just wanna cry and sleep.
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School works anxiety
Anxiety Support / by googie0901
Last post
 April 5th, 2021
...See more Hello. I've been feeling like this for months since last year. I often hyperventilate when opening our online class site or even opening my phone and seeing that there are notifications. I just want to throw my phone and sleep the semester away. Just opening my messenger apps bring me to tears. I hate it, I can't do anything. But I need to pass my requirements, answer assessments, take quizzes and exams every week. I receive 30 assessments minimum every week and 50 at most. I don't think I'm getting distracted by social media since I deleted my accounts already for months. Just thinking about online classes makes me cry. I want to learn, I want to study, but the sight of my module makes me shiver. Whenever I read, I can't understand nor absorb anything that I just cry. I'm scared of everything that hasn't happened yet. I'm scared of today and tomorrow. I'm scared of disappointing my family and myself. I can't stop the worries from popping into my mind and I find it hard to sleep. I want everything to just end
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