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ih55
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PathStep 21 Compassion hearts19 Forum posts5 Forum upvotes5 Current upvotes5 Age GroupAdult Last activeSeptember, 2025 Member sinceMay 30, 2025
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Messed up
Depression Support / by ih55
Last post
 September 2nd, 2025
...See more I feel like I've messed up beyond repair. Time passes by so quickly, the last month has felt like less than a week and I can't get myself to do anything. I've spent the last three months doing nothing. I'm sitting here on my *** and I just want it to be over.
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Depression Support / by ih55
Last post
 July 27th, 2025
...See more I don't know how to feel anymore. I thought I was ok, but I keep slowly falling apart piece by piece. I have hobbies and interests, and there's a future I'd like to be a part of. But nothing makes sense. There's always been a piece of me that would rather not be here. I could never bring myself to end it, but I desperately want to get rid of everything about me. But I know people care about me, I know that they would be in pain if I left. I don't want to hurt them. I want them to be happy.
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Calls
Anxiety Support / by ih55
Last post
 June 7th, 2025
...See more A simple phone call shouldn't put me in tears. It shouldn't fill me with such dread that my bones feel like they're shaking beneath my skin. It should drain me of all my energy and motivation to do anything for the rest of the day. It's not like it was a negative call. I should be proud that I finally got myself to do it. Instead I just want to go to sleep for longer than necessary.
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Numb
Depression Support / by ih55
Last post
 June 7th, 2025
...See more I feel numb. Like all my senses have been dulled. The taste of my favorite foods have become bland, the sound of my favorite songs have become muted, the smells of nature are no longer fragrant, and worst of all, the colors of the world are becoming greyer and grayer each day. The only thing I feel lately is the rumbling of my stomach telling it's time for sustenance, and the exhausted weakness forcing me to sleep. Every day is just another in a cycle of neverending stasis.
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