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I feel like I’m hopeless
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by impartialPark8011
Last post
 April 10th
...See more Hello, I’m a girl in my teens, and I’m pretty sure I’m bisexual. Of course knowing yourself properly is more of a legal adult thing, but from my experience, fantasies, and attraction I can say that. One time I was in a relationship with a girl, my only relationship. We were younger, and it was more like a child/teen sweet romance, with nothing more inappropriate than kisses or touches, and some overly big parents’ money spends on each other lol. The problem is, I live in Russia. And from 2022-23, I feel literally haunted. In fact, it’s a double trouble, because instead of me just being a bi, a girl, and a teen, I’m Ukrainian and have PTSD from there. So, in fact, I’m built for anything BUT living in here. I don’t feel like I’ll be accepted, and also all of my friends are now having a relationship, or had their first time, or someone had a crush on them, but I can’t find my person, and no person is finding me as theirs it seems. Made a mistake of telling more than I should about myself, so now it seems like most people I know are now judging me. My parents’ citizenship is local by time, but given the «artificial way», idk how to say it in English. So, one crime from me - they won’t be happy, and surely would need to head back. And uploading representative LGBT/ethnicity media, kissing on the street, sometimes EVEN with a boy as a girl, going protesting, can get me in jail, because I’m already that age I can go in there. I feel like I’ll never experience proper teenage / college romance, because even if that would be a boy, I would be afraid to get prejudice, since bisexuality is stereotyped as «cheater-material» or «a phase». And with a girl, I doubt I’d find anyone. Only if I Immigrate. But if I’d want to go back to Russia or Ukraine or anything nearby after being open, since I’ve always wanted to be a public figure, like maybe a blogger, an actor, a sports player, I wouldn’t be welcome. P.S : Yeah, I still haven’t told most of my family, so if something happens, not only it’s a potential crime, but a huge surprise within my own house. Yeah, that really is a thing with «we’re being genocided, even if you live in Russia right now now, you have to rise out population». Not from my family, but some stupid people within my diaspora/refugees from other countries. And yeah, I did not watch Heater Rivalry before ANYONE comes to say that like my abroad friend did, nor I’d do because it would make me sicker.
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How do you manage with that?
Trauma Support / by impartialPark8011
Last post
 April 13th
...See more THATS A STUPID ONE LOL. I’m only 15, and sorry for any mistakes, because it’s not my native language. The thing is that I lived between Ukraine, Russia and DPR, moving and travelling all of my life (while being Ukrainian + Crimean native ethnically and culturally as well). Now I live in Russia, on some remote place I’m sure you didn’t hear in any textbooks, and people treating me like *** is not the main problem. These guys are really great at cerebrating ANYTHING, I won’t be lying, as much as I’ve endured from their side, sometimes they can be fun guys, but I’m tired as *** and I’m sometimes having panic attacks bc of them blowing a yearly amounts of pyrotechnics near my windows at 3AM because some random calendar day. It’s got so bad I’m afraid of New Years now lol, because every time I think that’s a shelling, like I’ve never seen people going that loud for some holiday like in that region. What do I do? I can’t miss the fun, and I can’t let much people know I was in the war bc I don’t want jokes, but also I want to stay sane. That’s probably the stupidest problem in the whole history of 7Cups and I myself know it’s funny as ***, but can’t do anything about it
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I need someone’s advice I think. Also, probably may be triggering for some? No graphic descriptions of anything btw.
Trauma Support / by impartialPark8011
Last post
 April 5th
...See more Not my first language, so sorry for any mistakes. Kind of a weird situation, I’m now living in a country that invaded mine, all of my childhood I’ve been between 3 different governments and 3 different sides, before and during the conflict. I’ve seen some upsetting stuff, was under shellings, and now all of the sudden I’m on the wrong side. Living in a country that did that to mine, paying money here, participating unwillingly in some events. Other teens are usually mention my ethnicity or story, because someone always find time to spill some secrets and rumours, and as you probably thought, yeah not in a good way. Even my teachers are failing my grades and dissing my family in front of the whole class just because of who I am. I’m trying to understand what’s the funny part in exploding cellophane bags in front of my balcony at the arts camp, or someone screaming «there’s something in front of the window, lie down» and then laughing, or calling me come slurs if we can call these words so. I don’t see anything goofy in making a person scared over something like that happening. Love pranks myself, but would never do things that they are doing. It’s always my fault here if someone breaks something or spreads a rumour, I have good friends, that are really supportive, but sometimes they too have no literacy at some topics. I respect them too - everyone has the right to love their country, being patriotic is never bad. But I genuinely don’t understand why would someone be okay with nuking my relatives just for it all to end more quickly huh, or in joking about stuff and bringing up some characters in that or something, that’s a kid behaviour, and mind you, teens are known to be saying *** even if they don’t mean too, sometimes I accidentally say something horrible as well. But at like 15-18 you should know your tongue at least in public or with someone with a different backstory. I don’t even know what to say to them in response anymore. And I feel like now after living through the both sides of the conflict, neither side would accept me fully. I love both people and cultures, but I want mine back, and both govs honestly are almost equally bad. I won’t say any names, because I don’t want people arguing even more here. Crazy to know there are so many conflicts rn that people might not guess. I was diagnosed with PTSD recently also, and would like someone more experienced or older to tell me some advice. Sorry if that’s a lot and again sorry for mistakes.
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