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kofailure
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Will never know how to cope

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Why do I feel like this.
Depression Support / by kofailure
Last post
 July 4th
...See more I dont really know what's wrong with me, I'm not trying to self diagnoss myself with depression or anything of that sort, I consider myself a happy person, Most of the time. Whenever I'm alone I start to feel like this, like life has no matter at all and why should I even try if no one cares, I cry alone and do things mostly alone nowadays because I dont know how I am supposed to feel people my age are going out, having fun and usually im in my room crying about one thing or just on my phone all day and I wish I wasn't but I cant change, since last summer my mental health has gotten worse and im too scared to ask my parents to go to a doctor, my parents are old school so they dont understand. My mother makes fun of me when I cry, so I am too afraid to ask them to see someone that could try to help me. So nothing changes. I keep my problems to myself and I dont overshare about my personal feelings alot, I just dont know if my feelings are justified, others go through much harder struggles than I am going through right now, but im just a teenager with no real world problems, so why do I feel tired all of the time.
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Still not better
Depression Support / by kofailure
Last post
 May 2nd
...See more I posted my first thread on this app two months ago, I wish I could say I've gotten better but I haven't. My irl friends have started to distance themselves from me. For context, we are a trio and have been since two years ago, but now I feel like my friend has slowly started disliking me. Whenever I get happy about any of my grades they'll always tell me to stop showing off and that they got so much worse so I shouldn't be happy so honestly I dont know anymore. They've started leaving me out alot and even in school I feel constantly that im forcing a conversation on them. I wish I couldn't say the same for my online friends but it's true, 99% im always the person initiating the conversation and if I don't text first we won't talk at all. I just want someone to be my friend.
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I am getting worse.
Depression Support / by kofailure
Last post
 March 18th
...See more All of my friends are currently or have talked about me behind my back. I don't know how to cope with it. I love my friends and I consider them all good friends but ever since ive found out i don't know how to feel. What's sadder is that most of the people that were talking behind my back were the same people I spent nights with comforting and telling them that they deserve much better than the treatment they're getting and that I am always here for them. I probably wouldn't have even known until my "friend" told me, and not in a nice way either they're calling me a larper which is another word for a poser but they don't even know what im doing, watching or reading they have a problem with me either way if I watch or don't watch something. He called me an "annoying *** ***" and that he agrees with them. That was the same guy who I considered my male me no matter how much things got bad. Ever since ive found out I have been getting suicidal thoughts I know im never going to actually do it but it still lingers in my mind. The words they called me their so-called reposts about wanting to be a kind person. Every night ive cried myself to sleep wishing that this would all be over and that I wish I never met any of them. I know that that's not true. My summer got better because of them but noe my winter is getting worse and I am getting worse. I am only 14 I don't know how to cope with any of this or be able to say that I am getting better because I am not. I also don't want to speak slash open up about anything because I know they will call me an attention seeker, they have before. So I just sit in my room that's not even mine and cry quietly so none of my family members hear me because they will make fun of me for doing so. I just wish I could move on. That I can laugh it off as if it never bothered me but it does every single day.
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