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lewbyyy
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Hey guys im lewis 23 from the united kingdom! new to this been struggling with myself recently mainly with a bad break up and feeling very alone and unwanted which has led to anxiety and severe depression, looking for new people to talk to help me with my problems and maybe help them too and find a way to get me back to the happy me :)

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Its been a while. Found myself on the wrong path again.
Relationship Stress / by lewbyyy
Last post
 August 10th, 2018
...See more Hello all! Its been a while since i last posted or came on here, it may not be the correct category for this but i have spoken to people here in the past which makes me feel more confident putting it here. For the past few months ive been trying to pick myself up out of my depression, i have been throwing myself into situations i would normally avoid at all costs. Ive tried to make more plans with new friends and old, go out and be more active to fill my mind and body with positivity instead of having excess time to overthink negatively, i have this year started my driving lessons and have my test next week which im excited yet nervous for. Upon doing these things ive noticed something that really took the wind out of me completely, i genuinely dont have any friends who i can interact with now, i try so hard to make plans and it boils down to a non response or there busy, My ex (whom ive posted about in the past) used to help me along with my problems and she has also turned cold which hurt a lot becuase she was really the only person i could rely on and talk too with my problems confidently. Now i get back from work there is no message hoping if im well there is no message from people who want to see me no matter how much i reach out to them, i come home and tidy my place i sit down i feel so lethargic and lazy so when the slightest offer arises to do something i refuse i feel so brittle and tired of everything, i tried to eat well and put on weight in hopes id feel better as i dont like the way i look which also grinds me down, i have this long list of tasks and i just sit and think and think and then think again that how ill never achieve any of them. I thought i was on the right track some months ago things were going well until they come to a complete halt my support is gone my morale is gone im isolated and alone. My driving test is one week away and i just feel like im destined to fail, everything i start i do not finish i work all month just wishing the days away until i get paid just to rinse and repeat. The most crushing part is i know this is all happening around me i know that i am making those choices and my own unfulfilled potential makes me so angry and depressed i want to give up but i REFUSE i dont know where to go from here i dont know what to start, i dont know how i can reach out around me to make new friends as im just so isolated. I guess im looking for a solution to my attitude towards things i have depression which i take with a pinch of salt but i just feel as if its me against the world and im so close to losing everything even myself again, any advice on how i can get back out there interact, feel good and live good and not feel as if im a failure all the time, Im fighting a battle with myself and i just dont know how long i can keep the fight on for. Thank you all who read and comments i know its lengthy but its my first post in a while. As always Dum Spiro Spero
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My ex wont stop trying to contact me, what can i do?
Relationship Stress / by lewbyyy
Last post
 January 25th, 2018
...See more Hello All! Recently ive been trying to decrease contact with my ex. We are friends and the breakup occurred over a year ago, no grudges it ended on mutual ground. I recently found out that she still has feelings for me so ive been slowly stopping contact, this is difficult for me as she is a family friend and also in a relationship so i do tend to see her weekly/fortnightly. Ive slowly weened her off my social media and told her i need space to move on and grow as an individual. The only problem is she wont appreciate or respect my wish, she agrees with what i say then contacts me the next day as if the conversation had never taken place!! Does anyone know of another way i can go about telling her or minimising further contact from her, i dont want to get to the point where i have to completely avoid her or delete all social media as friends and family support me through these. Any help or advice is highly appreciated :)
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Traits of a relationship.
Relationship Stress / by lewbyyy
Last post
 February 16th, 2018
...See more Hello all who read this my first thread! My friends and i used to talk a lot about what compiles to a relationship? What makes a relationship? holding hands down the street? uncomfortable nights sleeping with hair in your face? looking after one another when sick? After a very long discussion as we imagined we really could not say what determined one but a few things i learnt and could say was this. A relationship is equality its about being equal, equal to do that of what the other may do. A relationship is commitment not 30% not 50% it is 100%, upon waking up every day if you cannot find a reason to commit 100% then why are you choosing her? A relationship should be sacred if your other half doesnt show you the love and affection through hard times would you go and find it elsewhere as many do? or would you stay there and support them no matter what. A relatinship is bound to no man, no object no nothing. it is free if you love someone and they love you then you will be together under no circumstance, if a reason arises from one party stating why they cant be with you even with there feelings there love is bound to them and not to you. Whilst reading these ask yourself has my other half ever done any of these things? have they been afraid of commitment? have they treated you poorly due to hard pastures and never appreciated you and your efforts? have they ever went out five times a week and that one night you wanted to go out with a frend you were scolded? If the answer is yes then thats not a fair real relationship. A relationship deserves everything from the two parties including all these aspects its equality, commitment, compassion and affection and nothing less. You have one major shot at a love life and i ask you all one thing, why would you settle for anything less? you deserve to be someones world and no ones toy and you should never forget it. 'Dum Spiro Spero'
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