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noboddddy134o
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Depression
Depression Support / by noboddddy134o
Last post
 January 15th
...See more I feel like I’ve become completely careless about my life. I’m a third-year pharmacy student in Italy, but lately everything has turned depressing. I can’t focus on anything anymore—especially not on my lessons. I have so many exams, and I’m not prepared for any of them. I also can’t sleep properly at night. I do manage to sleep sometimes, but only by taking pills, and even then I barely rest. Everything feels unreal, like I’m living in a dream. My days feel foggy, and I don’t see things the way I used to. I’ve started smoking much more than before—more than a pack a day. I feel deeply depressed. I know no one can truly save me. I keep feeling like I’m dreaming and that I could wake up at any moment. I spend most of my time sleeping and doing nothing. I really want to wake up because I’m exhausted. I hate seeing myself like this, but at the same time, I feel helpless and I don’t know how to make myself feel better.
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Depression,derealization
Positivity & Gratitude / by noboddddy134o
Last post
 December 12th, 2025
...See more Sometimes I wish I weren’t living inside this body… a body that feels like a borrowed place I don’t deserve. I wish I could simply vanish, because I’ve never felt like I truly belonged in this world. I stumble over words, over people, over life itself… so I retreat to my bed, letting sleep fold over me like a blanket that hides me from everything sharp and frightening outside. Everyone around me seems to know how to exist. And I — I’ve always felt like a silent disappointment, the kind no one mentions, the kind that just grows heavier in the quiet. And as time slips past me, it leaves a deeper hollow in my chest… just me, my regrets, and the version of myself I wish I could have been A hollow soul drifts through the night, Unseen, unheard, lost from the light
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A Stranger in My Own Skin
Depression Support / by noboddddy134o
Last post
 December 9th, 2025
...See more They tell me “be yourself,” but I don’t know who that could be; I’m drifting through my shadowed thoughts, a stranger lost in me. I search for echoes of my name in rooms where memories flee; still waiting for a quiet voice to whisper: “You are free.
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Depression,derealization
Positivity & Gratitude / by noboddddy134o
Last post
 December 12th, 2025
...See more It’s strange how everyone in my family is outgoing… and then there’s me. Quiet. Distant. Alone. Not because I want to be— but because something inside me never learned how to fit in. I want friends. I want to talk. I want to feel like I exist in someone’s world… but every time I try, my mind just shuts down. I freeze. I go blank. And people never made it easier. They were never kind to me. They laughed, whispered, avoided me— like I was some kind of mistake. And slowly, I started believing them. So here I am, watching life from the outside, wishing I had a normal teenage life, wishing I knew what it felt like to be wanted. The older I get, the heavier the regret feels. I don’t hate my life… I just wish it had turned out different. I just wish I had turned out different. I speak in shadows, where no one hears my name. A heart still beating, but whispering in pain.
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Depression,derealization
Depression Support / by noboddddy134o
Last post
 December 8th, 2025
...See more I’ve tried so many things. I even started boxing again. I’m not sure if it’s helping. I just don’t have a clear sense of reality anymore. I can’t see things the way I used to—trees, the sky, people… it all feels like a dream. Time keeps passing, days go on endlessly, and yet I still carry a little hope in my heart that I’ll get better. It’s been two years since I moved to another country. I really miss my family, but I don’t think that’s the only reason I feel this way, because it’s been more than two years that I’ve been like this. I’ve tried a lot, talked to many people, just trying to wake myself up… but no matter how hard I tried, nothing ever worked. Still, I hold on to the hope that one day I’ll feel better, be better, and be happy again.
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Depression Support / by noboddddy134o
Last post
 July 28th, 2025
...See more Its been 2 years that im living in italy right now And back in my home town When i was 18 l couldn't study for the entrance exam of the university because i was a slow mind or that's what i think I hate studying and in this country (italy) I am just passing my exams by cheating because i am lazy I never had lot of friends growing up i used to stutter sometimes because i was scared I used to get bullied alot I never had girlfriends or a social life And I always struggle having no confidence I cannot and I don't know how to talk to people Nobody likes me in this city And I'm alone I really hate to be alone and i just gave up on it l am sad most of the time I don't enjoy anything anymore I cannot think positive. Sometimes I really wish i had a good life and i was social happy having a lot of friends or a girlfriend But I really cannot Sometimes i feel like im cursed Because I have never done Sometimes i feel like im cursed Because I have never done something good in my life At least up to now When I think about it I feel good it's like im living inside of my mind I regret about them all most of the time I feel like I cannot do anything else
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