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sociableTurtle9080
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Self medicating
Addiction Support / by sociableTurtle9080
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 August 3rd, 2025
...See more Hi everyone, I’ve been going through a really rough patch of my life for the last year basically and have been heavily self medicating with THC. I quit for about 4/5 months and was doing really well until I witnessed something very traumatic and I was powerless. I couldn’t help that person as badly as I wanted to. That day I was consumed with the feeling and had gone to see my friend after work. She offered me to hit her pen knowing I was going through a hard time and after that I have not been able to stop scrambling for the cart as soon as I feel like I’m going to have any emotions whatsoever. I just keep numbing myself because I can’t handle having to be conscious for all of this constantly every day. It never ends and it’s always something new. I’m so exhausted but I don’t know how else to cope right now except by running away into the high
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Cant connect with anyone
Autism Support / by sociableTurtle9080
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 November 5th, 2025
...See more My entire life I’ve always been different. My family says I’m too much, kids at school always thought I was weird and growing up I was bullied and didnt have many friends. My family was physically abusive when I was a child and has evolved into more of a mental/verbal abuse situation with physical abuse threatened but rarely ever followed through. I have been lonely my entire life and at 24 I don’t know how to have connections. I don’t know how to make friends. I’m just constantly trying to survive every day and I don’t have the money or resources to leave. I love my siblings and I don’t want to lose contact with my family but I also can’t have them in my life and be happy at the same time 😭any advice?
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Family dynamics/OCD guilt
OCD & Related Behaviors / by sociableTurtle9080
Last post
 August 3rd, 2025
...See more I have an incredibly toxic family dynamic. Due to my current financial situation I have no other choice but to live with said toxic family. Have anyone else here had to deal with the guilt and anxiety of actually standing up to their abusive parents? I always feel so guilty for being upset with them or fighting with them because I’m so scared they could die right after and it’s the last thing I ever said to them. It gets so frustrating because I want to stand on being upset so they would actually respect my boundaries and how I feel, but I always cave because I could not live with the guilt of our last interaction being an argument. They aren’t typically kind to me and I can’t understand logically why I just can’t bring myself to treat them the same way.
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