Bitter and Resentful

I've been rewriting this and changing topics on my thread for 30 minutes. Haha... I think I just have a lot of jumbled up ideas to post about, and I can't just commit to one.

I am 27 and I fear I am only getting more resentful and bitter, even when things seem to be improving in life.

I also noticed I am struggling with some emotions that I cannot decide if they are normal or not. For instance, I haven't been wanting to spend much time with... well, anyone in reality. Even though I am lonely. But most importantly, my boyfriend. The one person I should always want to be around.

I also fear that I could far too easily fall down a rabbit hole if I try to explain it. Makes it harder to talk about. I would never want to overwhelm anyone with the details of my troubles.

I don't know how much I should say, or what specifically to focus on. I guess I was just hoping someone would see this and understand.

Thank you if you read my post all the way through. I hope it wasn't too vague.