Felling hopeless
i feel like I lost passion on everything I studied... I spent years making progress. I've been without friends almost 3 years now.. Just going downhill with alcoholism and self destructive behavior... Some relatives mocking me for not finding a job. I'm really trying I apply every day. But now to be realistic I'm just stuck at home with my studies left behind and with no friends no one interested in what I have to say and what I have to offer... I really think I'm a great girl... I mean I love to learn and talk and I used to be an active person. But now I feel like I've hitted rock bottom...all of a sudden and there is no way up for me.. what the *** happened... I used to be surrended by friends and never stopped even a minute during the day. Now I'm stuck at home.
I'm thankful for my mom that even tho she doesn't know I'm this bad she supports me and trys to give me energy but I feel like I'm just stealing hers cause I can't make a change.
It looks like you have some positives and negatives going on in your life at the moment. I'm glad you have the support from your mom during these tough times. It's always a good aspect to have when you love to learn.
There are a few things we can look at here. With your studies, what were you passionate with? Has that passion changed or disappeared because you've lost interest in what you're studying? Do you have interest in another field? What do you see yourself doing in 3 years? In 5 years?
Finding a job, and applying for them. Have you been applying through online job search sources? Does your resume look professional, did you have a cover letter? For the jobs that you have more interest and confidence in, did you follow-up with the employer in regards of receiving your resume?
As for not having friends for the past 3 years, I understand how that feels. I haven't had any friends for nearly 10 years, no friends that I can hang out with or chat on the phone with. But seeing how you like to talk, it might be easier for you to start up a conversation with others. Are there places you can go to meet new people to make friends with? Maybe do some volunteer work, where you can meet those who have the same interest and passion for the type of volunteer work you've chosen.
Hang in there~
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