Grief
I was in a relationship where things were going off road a while... Nd I was trying to get off becoz of the counting lies nd so on.... So whn I stopped first... He didn't care ... Thn was saying like no it's my fault nd am always wrong so much nd becoz of me all the fights happened... Thn some days later he started saying sorry nd saying to fix... Bt I didn't listen he did like 2 days... Nd thn I thought I had given him enough chances since 2.6 years... Within tht much of time by being angry,sad, happy he didn't listen so how will he gonna fix now... So I didn't... He said he was having prob bt still I didn't listen... So after some days u k I've been like in sooooooooo much of guilt... Like I can't evn stand myself... I started to feel like maybe like really it's my fault tht it ended... I was tooo controlling tht he lied... Evn if I was to end I should take his call... Nd the guilt had been soooo much tht I've crying nd crying... Everything feels hard... I evn unblocked him ... Checked his social.. like I really feel like I should reach out to him... Coz how can I evn live with such guilt.... So it's kinda to me like evn if I make my mind I can't stay strong on tht .... It happened before... If I stopped talking thn after sometime I'll check if he had called or texted me or so on..... So after all these days later today I texted him.... He didn't respond.... Like he didn't care.. nd I know he won't evn msg anymore..... Nd now I don't know what evn I'm doing.... yp Im clueless nd now evn moreee
@anonyLychee6864 best wishes to you
@hannahbanana0000 thnks💛
@anonyLychee6864
You are not clueless!
You deserve someone who texts back right away!
You finished it for a reason!
When you spend time healing and putting you first, you'll be able to see what you really need, and deserve from a relationship.
Please be gentle with yourself!
💜💕
@Amanda84 bt uk I feel guilty tooo much... I broke evn the no contact.... Uk I wanna talk to you abt this
@anonyLychee6864
Dont feel guilty, you did what you needed to! 💜
@anonyLychee6864 Reading this, I can feel how torn you've been. For a long time you were dealing with the lies, the fights, and the disappointment, and when you finally decided to walk away, it wasn't an impulsive decision. Now you're left carrying all this guilt and questioning whether you did the right thing.
What really stood out to me was how much responsibility you're putting on yourself for everything that happened. When we're hurting and missing someone, it's easy to look back and focus on all the things we wish we had done differently.
I can understand why his not responding brought up even more confusion and pain. Right now you're trying to process the end of a 2.6-year relationship, the guilt, the unanswered questions, and the loss all at once. That's a lot for anyone to hold.
Thank you for sharing something so personal. ❤️
