I don't feel like I have enough time.
You only get one life and the majority of my young life was spent in my room because of social anxiety. People actually laugh at me for being socially unskilled. It's like I'm in highschool again, but I'm 27. I basically get bullied by complete strangers and those who see me a lot.
It's just, I don't want to spend my life friendless and single. I am really scared of having my first date in my 40's. I'm scared of BECOMING 40 and not having had a job or boyfriend. My parents want me to stay on their property because they say the land is mine when they die. I live in my own little cabin.
I don't want to rot so, I'm going to force myself to get out. I guess I'm just worried. I only have one life and not as many years left and I'm just wasting it, not knowing what I want to do with it. I had a couneslor that told me about how she got married in her 30's and that I'm just a late bloomer and I should live life at my own pace. I just feel the complete opposite!
My parents sheltered me my whole life and my mom doesn't want me to get married or move away. Not that I have plans to do either of those things, I just hate having no life. Btw, I'm on ssi for being bipolar.
Honestly, my worst fear is turning 40 or elderly and not having done anything with my life!
i wanted to say as reading that i know everyone sees life from their lens and perspective and hav eno idea of yours but if i can say to have parents that gave you a place to to call yours one day ive alway loved the cabin for i enjoy nature just town ehh but on of my parent chose drugs and beat the childen and partner to leave them nohting but pain and fuel little bit of trama and i shared for truthful thats something i long for to be seen by family but im a ghost always breathe first 28 with much time wasted drinking and sleeping life away now its like back at squre one jsut not as attrive and alot more work to do i was a brown kid with long bright redish hair emo phase and was NOT popular but guess seeing someone kind of in teh same bubble makes it seem less lonley out there (Time we all believe stand still for us but we find out fast or quickly we are the ones standing around waiting for time hoping we can get more or for a moment feel in charge. Hey do you remember me or just a memory did you even care it’s okay I know you never did. The 9-5 was never part of the dream growing up wasn’t meant to be to long got talking also told no job would keep or stick. Listen to your mind, train your mental ability easily influenced and it’s their favorite thing. Title If there is hope do we have a chance? We all wish for the helping hand all with a plan then the shadow came and destroyed everyone’s plan. Looking behind us hoping still to see nothing. ) as i get told im still young with life left the mmore you worry and dont try to take in the moments you can something im struggling with, the faster time seems to go i hope i didnt seem to awkward
