My misery and loneliness brought me here
Today I feel more alone than I have ever felt before, as if this world is empty and I am alone on earth. My contradictory personality made me lose all the people who were close to me. I always found excuses for them not to ask or go out with them. Until they finally decided to leave and moved on with their lives, leaving me completely alone. I have no one to talk to or anything else to do. I have a sigh in my heart, if I let it out and let the world hear it, the world would be very depressed, miserable and sad. Throughout my life I have tried to please everyone to feel that I have a place among them, but all my attempts have failed until I reached a stage where I feel unwanted and rejected by the people closest to me. I truly feel like I have never been loved. My insides are empty and my soul is broken and I don’t even know what I’m doing here. This world was not made for one to live in alone.
@ZainQ86
I can understand that we do not feel really included if we do go out we do not seem to fit and find fun that others around us seem to ... so we make the polite excuses and sooner or later the invitations just stop coming.... we think well we can regroup and try later but everyone else moved on.... I found thru much trial and error that it takes time and maybe several so-so outings to have the one good one.....that others are simply amused and have fun easier then i do or they fake it.
it is not fun being the left out one and it does not go away the invitations to join are not always easy to come by and it is lonely when others seem to be doing all around you.
@ZainQ86
I’m really sorry you’re feeling this way. It sounds incredibly painful to feel so alone and disconnected. Your experiences and emotions are valid, and it’s clear you’ve been through a lot. Sometimes, our efforts to fit in and please others can lead to misunderstandings and feelings of rejection, but that doesn’t mean you’re unlovable or unwanted.
Reading your message, I can sense the depth of your pain, and it's important to acknowledge that you deserve support and understanding. Even if it feels like the world is empty right now, please know that there are people who care and want to help. Sharing your feelings is a brave step, and it’s okay to seek out connections and support from others who understand what you’re going through. Please don’t hesitate to reach out to me or any other active listener if you want to talk. You don’t have to face this alone.
