A big energy day

Today feels big.

This weekend, Auntie and I had a blow-up. Her tactics the last three months have been abusive, but I've given her space because I knew she was stressed. This weekend was the final straw, and I had to tell her we needed to be done. I want her in my life, but I will not put up with abuse anymore (42 years is more than enough).

This morning I woke up...brighter, I think?? I like where my YouTube Channel is going, I have a plan for money, and I'm looking to the future instead of blaming the past for once!

Then I get an email from my lawyer. My ex wants to relocate. Per our agreement, I am allowed to deny her this, but I think them moving might be a really good thing! It complicates my life somewhat, because I want to live in the same school district as the kids (so I can eventually do 50-50 parenting). However, I haven't made any specific plans about my move yet, so I can swing this!

When I woke up this morning feeling how I felt, I had a song stuck in my head: "Watch What's Next" by Mikey Rukus ft. Suzie Mojo. For anyone not in the know, this used to be the theme song for a wrestler named Toni Storm. I turned it on and bounced on my walk, letting the lyrics sink into my bones. This song resonates with me so much today.

So I am going to watch what's next. I'll keep you posted.