The fool
Yea 8 years and now i can see gow stupid and how much of a dam fool i been. Thought it was love. Happily ever afters are not for everyone and thats something i have to accept. So i just wish he would get the hell on. My spirit is so loyal and loving that i dont want to put him on the streets but dam. Im tired of being hurt and talked to any kinda of way. Im tired of crying at night. Im tired of trying my best to keep things smooth and together. He dont do shit. He work and thats it but tells co workers how he met me and my kids and i had 3 jobs. Like ge was superman and i was a charity case. Emotional abuse is real. Been dealing with it for a couple years now making excuses for him. But tonight he really just topped it off. Told me he cant love me anymore or dance with me to a love song cause im not black. Wow and im the only realest loyal woman ever came into your life. Never treated you wrong. But i been a dam fool over you. Never cheated that i know of. Tried but you onow im on it. So he backed out. Im not stupid. This aint my first go round. But dam this was my first deep spirtual love and you showed the same the first 4 years. Now. You been mf punk. I dont deserve it but why do i still wanna be nice and caring. Sometimes i wish my spirit and heart wasnt so loving. I wouldnt be ib so much pain if i wasnt. Dont yall agree?
@loveless1981
You are not a fool. Loving heart are the best. You do not deserve being treated badly because you loved. He obviously didn't deserve you. Please, refocus and love yourself, to heal and move on with a more deserving partner. Remember you are not wrong and you are not stupid to love. Try to move on and be happy.
Its so hard. He aint left yet and i just dint want to go through this shit anymore. There is not much left of my heart to get broken more
@loveless1981
Just my opinion but you are definitely no fool. You got used like a tissue and tossed away unjustly. Shame on him honestly and you know what, his loss is a better mans treasure to cherish one day. Your spirit is strong and resilient and compassionate which shows you have a great heart and a pure soul. You're just misunderstood and taken for granted. Hes the fool here, not you. You sound like a wonderful person who I'm sure is very loyal and dedicated to a man you love. He will realize his mistake one day when he realizes that he cant do better then you and it will be too late to make amends with you because you will be happy with a new better man who is deserving and worthy if you, unlike this ex you speak of. And whats with his racism to you? He cant dance with you because you're not black? Like seriously in this day and age and he still cant evolve his so called intelligence beyond race and skin color? He sounds pitiful. I'm sorry to sound judgmental and labeling folks like this but this ongoing injustice towards individuals like you, it just sickens me. You have my deepest condolences and I'm offering bear hugs if accepted by you.
Thank you yall. Hearing this from you makes me feel a little better. He hasnt even left yet. Im at the point i rather him leave now then to wait for my heart to hate him. But he has belittled me without even knowing it. Always talking about other woman and barely touches me. Turns me down everytime until he wants it. I just hurt so much cause i fought so hard to keep things together. Blood sweat and tears. I finally told him how i felt in a email cause he never lets me finish talking and he just got quiet. No reaction no attempt to make things right. Hell i got him tickets to no limit reunion concert for our anniversary. He didnt get me shit. Excuse he pay bills. Hell so do i. And still found a way to squeeze out something. Im not materialistic or bouje. It the little things. He dont appreciate me anymore gell dont even listen or show he cares. So why he keep asking me to let him go? You grown. Go... He dont want to look like the bad guy. Yea you stepped up and took care of my kids wgen they dad didnt but only finacially. What else do you do with them? You work come home drink eat and pass out.
@loveless1981
again that is quite the hard downtrodden story about your life. I really am so sorry. I wish i had the answers you need or a magic cure to fix this so you wouldn't have to suffer anymore but i cant. All i can say is what I said to u before and just remind you how incredible and resilient strong dedicated compassionate and amazing you are just by being you. He sounds like a lazy one side narcissistic man who squanders treasures that HES LUCKY TO HAVE LIKE YOU!! He will eventually see the errors of his selfish ways one day and regret what he did but by then it will too late because you moved on from him and found a better man that is more thoughtful and open minded and dedicated to you. You do deserve happiness and to actually show that pretty smile im sure you have. His loss is truly a better mans gain and fortune. I understand that your heartbroken but you aren't seeing the big picture here and that is you are someone special just by being yourself. You have been this way since birth and are destined for great things that this particular dingleberry cannot provide. Its good that you aren't materialistic and yet despite much financial strain that you was able to be really genuine and find a way to provide him with a very thoughtful anniversary gift. I hope you find peace and your inner light to make you feel satisfied by a man on every level but complete and fulfilled as you should be now. Stay strong and don't quit on yourself ever. You can get thru this and rebuild into a new loveless 2.0 that is even better stronger and happier then ever before. We all believe in you 🎉🎉🎉🎉. GO LOVELESS GO LOVELESS GO GO GO 💪🏻💪🏻.
@loveless1981
btw him belittling you and turning you down for any affection unless he wants it as u say, thats flat out disgusting and rude and so just ughh i have words for it that i cant say here because this is a positive community but lets just say he is being flat out disrespectful to you by ignoring u and talking about other females in front of u and using you like that. It's exactly the same like him spitting in your face. He sounds like something that my neighbors dog made in the grass and probably stinks just as bad. My condolences again miss. One day you will find someone better that will cherish and appreciate the gift they was given aka you as their gf/wife. For now I'd say work on flushing that coiled pile clogging the toilet in your life down the john and maybe take some time for you and make new friends and have fun and chat and laugh and flirt and just feel alive feel attractive feel happy and enjoy your life which i am sure you havent feel like that in many millenia with his blatant systematic narcissistic abuse of you.
