Feeling ready to give up on being social
I'm just seeking to vent here. Please carry on with my best wishes if you're not interested.
How exactly am I meant to be 36, a parent, a husband, an employee, and put up with people's BS at the same time. People who I'm not even related to and don't have any actual obligation towards. I'm too old for this stuff, man.
My wife and I don't have a lot of friends, and I find myself consistently disappointed in the behavior of the people I do try and maintain relationships with.
I'm exhausted, strung out, and juggling daily grind on top of existential demand. I don't need this anymore. The juice is far, far from worth the squeeze the vast majority of the time.
I just had an interaction with someone I believe is a good friend, the first one we've had in weeks, that's left me wondering why I bother to respond to this person at all.
I know why, because I'm not a jerk. I don't ghost people, but I just can't help but feeling like whatever effort I put into maintaining some kind of social circle is such a hopeless waste of time.
Someone talk me out of it, or I'm ready to give up and retreat into my family like a hedgehog into its burrow. I don't feel like I'd be giving a lot up if I did.
@HearshotKid
You are feeling a lot right now.
But you don't have to give your all to everyone
Focus on those who give you the same energy back.
If someone is not reaching out to me, I tell you for sure, I'm not reaching out for them 🧡
Thanks @Amanda84. You're right.
The healthy thing to do would be to refocus on higher quality people (as pretentious as that might sound). Put your energy where you can get the most out of it.
I just don't feel up for it anymore. Call me jaded, but cutting bait doesn't feel like the worst option.
@HearshotKid
Pretentious is not the word I'd use, but I find it works better for me, having a more small, closer, intimate circle, than shallow acquaintances 🩷🤗
