Heavy day yet still bright in spirit

Yesterday was my heavy day, my mum finally ahowed some of her emotions, she has taught/be trained to close off her emotions/feelings and her anger just shows up when we hae sinple convos or her triggers are pushed by the smallest things, one thing about parents some of them do not know how to truly heal themselves or want the needed help. It took the strength if ne and ny sister to just hug my mom, she give her that love her inner child truly needs and did not get growing up. A lot of unpacking this is only step one. My mum does need therapy and I pray that she seeks it cuz these hard yakks she can only see half way into since there is another form of clarity she needs to resonate with, learn from and begin to heal and love on her inner child so she can grow n be her best self. With the desth of her mom only a year fresh she is still grieving/ had to take over the estate clean pay to clean up and maintain the bills for the house. That is headry, we watched and helped her out the best way we could during those times. She is still learning it is okay to be soft and not so cold, my mum is locked inside of the picture she must be perfect. I know most ppl go thru that in life, it drove me nuts so I always showed her my real self even if she did not get it. Now as a parent of a young women, I show up i ways my mother did not and teach her too even if it does not make sense to her fully. Un-learning the ways of how we been taught to speak and treat one another in abusive ways, was something my mum did not know how to escape from. It still weighs on her. I am tired of the verbal abuse from her. Gave her grace during the grieving process we all lost my gma. It was rough yet while I live breathe and have a choice to atay peaceful and remain healthy. All i can do is show my mum the way and love her. It will take tike cuz I am still processing the breakthru yesterday. My nervous system beeds a break sooo eye shall re-align it in the sauna and just breathe. Alot of tears and deeep exhales helped me thru it. Still in motion of taking careof my mental health