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Lenaye8
2 3,263 M Seeking Light
PathStep 94 Compassion hearts440 Forum posts213 Forum upvotes399 Current upvotes399 Age GroupAdult Last activeNovember, 2026 Member sinceFebruary 2, 2022
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Upset and disgusted
General Support / by Lenaye8
Last post
 Friday
...See more I have never ever ever ever been sooo upset with a job or management in my liiife!!! I am glad this news came to me from the evil horse itself. Yet dammit…. I used to have theee worse exam anxiety for my mblex exams and I finally passed my exam Sept 29,2026!!👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾💐💐✨✨ Yet things have changed with the massage board soo I have to take another exam to obtain my liscense. mind you I have to stay on top of my manager since she does not stay on top of the task that need to be done so I can become a LMT, instead of providing stretch therapy for my clients who want a massage by me since the other therapist are not aligned in the true consideration and care of the client My job waited three weeks to give me the proper paperwork and info to fill out and send to the state massage board. Which is gov so it takes time ALREADY😮‍💨😮‍💨. When my manager asked for a document I knew I had she did not mention I have to put in a request for my schools transcript. My school closed in 2015. So the only transcript I have is the same one given to me at graduation. I did not know I could not use that as my official transcript for this exam, when it was accepted for my first exam. She finally mentioned to me on yesterday that “yeah you need to request your transcript for the exams” I said word thanks The fact that she knew and has been looking at me in the face everyday I come into work and has not told me at alll like hey heads up here is what you need. I strongly dislike the mind games, mis-guidance, inconsideration of my time soace and energy. Grateful to work just not in a sh^tty space. 6 months of this. You had all the time to provide the right info to me for a smooth win and yeah no.😑😑 I pray and I know I have to deeply meditate since this is not it!! I have already written and revised again my resignation letter. Once I am approved and obtain my liscense I need a healing moment frfr to re-align my chakras before I begin my next job which is already in alignment👏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾✨✨💐💐📿📿 I am a very oeaceful person and I have professionally crashed out with this company too many times
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Sibling distance
General Support / by Lenaye8
Last post
 Friday
...See more I have been living with my sibling for almost 3 yrs now and I am over it, we all live together at home with our mother and kids. I am at a point where I need to save and move out. The energy my sibling had at this point in life there is nothing I can do to help them. They have to helo themselves, and there rudeness and attitude I am not for at all. I am still my hapoy self yet I am not my siblings crutch,and since they are in pain from an injury they have became more nasty towards me and my peace of mind just wants to be away from themmas much as possible. I am not thier maid or keeper and all of the house work falls on me, they do not want to listen to what they need to do to heal. I am the healer in my family and I am over the bs from them. I need space like three years away from family to just live on my own and enjoy it for what it is. I do not want to crash out on my sibling so I do my best just to focus on me and my health and my childs health. That is all I can focus on since my sibling lives in their own delulu universe and I am not here for it right now in this chapter in my life .
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Motions of trauma
Trauma Support / by Lenaye8
Last post
 September 3rd
...See more I have been going through the motions of my trauma with people to sort my thoughts out and really look at the situations in full sight, which made me learn what else can I do to heal from these thoughts with certain names pop up, i deep breathe and say a prayer. I keep telking myself this person right now is diff than the women before. You are not that trauma stay focused on what your doing now. I exhale and feel better and take the day moment for moment
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Almost out the door
Work & Career / by Lenaye8
Last post
 July 26th
...See more I was able to get another job outside of my contract yoga work which was hitting a wall of no consistent gigs or just low paying. I starting working in my, I choose to work 3-4 days a week and watching my clients walk out due to canceling appointments or canceling memberships due to the companies standards and ethics leaves a gap in my wallet everytime I get paid. I make more money from my tips so I can not even count on that now. This month has brought the best and worse out of me. Doing my best not to stress yet when clients leave I get a lil depressed like I need to really get away from this type of work enviornment it does not help me grow and there is no room to grow at this time, since the company is having trouble keeping staff that acutally want to work. I had a deep dream this am telling me to leave this toxic space since it is the same mental game they play everytime. I have been subconciously hinting at leaving and it is real in plain signt why. I am loosing money working here and since it is further put my commute cost more. Metro is not always reliable, I have found a new job tho and I am in the waiting stages of it all. I know I need to keep my faith strong and focus up. Right now I just want to leave and go home and take care of my body
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Confused about my dad
General Support / by Lenaye8
Last post
 May 20th
...See more Exhales Me and my dads relationship is still growing at an odd speed. It has been a 30 yr gap since he has honestly been in my life consistently. The only reason I have kept him in my world is my daughter his only grand-daughter/grand-child. It took the pandemic for him to realize his presents is still needed even if you live miles away, your actions still hold power, it does not matter if I am a grown women. I have to clue him in with my life. What really hurt is him as my father did not acknowledge me on Mothers day something I rarely get upset about yet this year it hurt. I have been expressing my life flows just to keep a steady job and upgrade in my field of theraputics. So for him to speak to me the whole week leading up to that sunday and not say a word 🙄🙄🙄🙄. I do not think of him as a father figure since I did not get that growing up. He still is distant, even with his health he says he does not need me checking on him… ouuu he is too stubborn for his own self. He is soo used to be alone he misses the real joys in life even if he gets them thru txt messages. He does not call on a daily basis. When I do reach out her repkies on his own time. I foubd out with speaking to my mum about him he is not intentional in some of his actions. He did send his grand-daughter a bday card at the top of the month. We called him on his bday and send him a video singing happy birthday. Not sure what is going on yet, expressing this finally here helped. I expressed it to my sister she did not have many words. Since she her father is an angel. I know that I am loved by all the beautiful and mighty women in my life who I pour into as well. We celebrate one another 💞💞💞 I know for the future my partner has to love themselves enough to provide that type of love I truly seek. My dads love is a small amount and that is all he can give in this lifetime. I am planning to take a trip to see him so he can actually grasp what he has been missing all of these yrs honest love and grace from the child you have made Exhales
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Heavy day yet still bright in spirit
35 & Over Community / by Lenaye8
Last post
 April 10th
...See more Yesterday was my heavy day, my mum finally ahowed some of her emotions, she has taught/be trained to close off her emotions/feelings and her anger just shows up when we hae sinple convos or her triggers are pushed by the smallest things, one thing about parents some of them do not know how to truly heal themselves or want the needed help. It took the strength if ne and ny sister to just hug my mom, she give her that love her inner child truly needs and did not get growing up. A lot of unpacking this is only step one. My mum does need therapy and I pray that she seeks it cuz these hard yakks she can only see half way into since there is another form of clarity she needs to resonate with, learn from and begin to heal and love on her inner child so she can grow n be her best self. With the desth of her mom only a year fresh she is still grieving/ had to take over the estate clean pay to clean up and maintain the bills for the house. That is headry, we watched and helped her out the best way we could during those times. She is still learning it is okay to be soft and not so cold, my mum is locked inside of the picture she must be perfect. I know most ppl go thru that in life, it drove me nuts so I always showed her my real self even if she did not get it. Now as a parent of a young women, I show up i ways my mother did not and teach her too even if it does not make sense to her fully. Un-learning the ways of how we been taught to speak and treat one another in abusive ways, was something my mum did not know how to escape from. It still weighs on her. I am tired of the verbal abuse from her. Gave her grace during the grieving process we all lost my gma. It was rough yet while I live breathe and have a choice to atay peaceful and remain healthy. All i can do is show my mum the way and love her. It will take tike cuz I am still processing the breakthru yesterday. My nervous system beeds a break sooo eye shall re-align it in the sauna and just breathe. Alot of tears and deeep exhales helped me thru it. Still in motion of taking careof my mental health
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Desling with the in between
7 Cups Online Therapy / by Lenaye8
Last post
 January 16th
...See more Deep Exhales.. Deep Exhales.. dealing with the in between of healing from a two month mind cluck of a job who was not paying us for hard bodywork labor. It truly hurt my whole being cuz I was sold on a scam/exploited for my talent time and energy 😖😖 I made enough to pay my bills and take care of myself yet it came with a heaping amount of stress, confusion, miscommunication, and toxic energy. My mindset had to flip again and go over my plan to keep me healthy including taking care of my daughter properly. I am feeling it more since my family thinks I may not be working hard enough. All perception of how they see me, whichbmay look like stillness… I move diff for my own peace of mind. I am still applying for jobs I have never stopped since jan 2025. Even with my gigs in between I have never stopped posting my yoga content, pouring into healing myself and child. They may not fully see me yet I know I am working hard my whole being is working to stay in a positive mindset and not sink into a depressy mood even if I it does come up for a day which was yesterday. 😕 It was a heavy day going thru the motions. I feel better today just praying for divine connection with my next job, so I regain my focus on adulting/ goals. This is feeling is not fun at all
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I thought the best…
General Support / by Lenaye8
Last post
 December 13th, 2025
...See more I thought wrong about my next contract hob and yes I do have the option to up and leave once I obtain my next real paying gig. The contract is paying pennies for bodywork which is not healthy on me. My boundaries are loud and clear. I brought it up to the ppl I report too abd they were silent still fumbeling the answers and sticking to the fact they needed more help. I am not in my 20’s when I helped over 20+ ppl to start or pour into their dreams/business instead of mines fully. So yeah it feels like a step back from what I should be making on a day to day basis. I feel like I need to hide the majority of me when I am there and get home safely. I truly dislike seeing business as a money grab and not for the community frfr
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