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Lenaye8
2 3,223 M Seeking Light
PathStep 94 Compassion hearts429 Forum posts208 Forum upvotes389 Current upvotes389 Age GroupAdult Last activeSeptember, 2026 Member sinceFebruary 2, 2022
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Motions of trauma
Trauma Support / by Lenaye8
Last post
 September 3rd
...See more I have been going through the motions of my trauma with people to sort my thoughts out and really look at the situations in full sight, which made me learn what else can I do to heal from these thoughts with certain names pop up, i deep breathe and say a prayer. I keep telking myself this person right now is diff than the women before. You are not that trauma stay focused on what your doing now. I exhale and feel better and take the day moment for moment
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Almost out the door
Work & Career / by Lenaye8
Last post
 July 26th
...See more I was able to get another job outside of my contract yoga work which was hitting a wall of no consistent gigs or just low paying. I starting working in my, I choose to work 3-4 days a week and watching my clients walk out due to canceling appointments or canceling memberships due to the companies standards and ethics leaves a gap in my wallet everytime I get paid. I make more money from my tips so I can not even count on that now. This month has brought the best and worse out of me. Doing my best not to stress yet when clients leave I get a lil depressed like I need to really get away from this type of work enviornment it does not help me grow and there is no room to grow at this time, since the company is having trouble keeping staff that acutally want to work. I had a deep dream this am telling me to leave this toxic space since it is the same mental game they play everytime. I have been subconciously hinting at leaving and it is real in plain signt why. I am loosing money working here and since it is further put my commute cost more. Metro is not always reliable, I have found a new job tho and I am in the waiting stages of it all. I know I need to keep my faith strong and focus up. Right now I just want to leave and go home and take care of my body
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Confused about my dad
General Support / by Lenaye8
Last post
 May 20th
...See more Exhales Me and my dads relationship is still growing at an odd speed. It has been a 30 yr gap since he has honestly been in my life consistently. The only reason I have kept him in my world is my daughter his only grand-daughter/grand-child. It took the pandemic for him to realize his presents is still needed even if you live miles away, your actions still hold power, it does not matter if I am a grown women. I have to clue him in with my life. What really hurt is him as my father did not acknowledge me on Mothers day something I rarely get upset about yet this year it hurt. I have been expressing my life flows just to keep a steady job and upgrade in my field of theraputics. So for him to speak to me the whole week leading up to that sunday and not say a word 🙄🙄🙄🙄. I do not think of him as a father figure since I did not get that growing up. He still is distant, even with his health he says he does not need me checking on him… ouuu he is too stubborn for his own self. He is soo used to be alone he misses the real joys in life even if he gets them thru txt messages. He does not call on a daily basis. When I do reach out her repkies on his own time. I foubd out with speaking to my mum about him he is not intentional in some of his actions. He did send his grand-daughter a bday card at the top of the month. We called him on his bday and send him a video singing happy birthday. Not sure what is going on yet, expressing this finally here helped. I expressed it to my sister she did not have many words. Since she her father is an angel. I know that I am loved by all the beautiful and mighty women in my life who I pour into as well. We celebrate one another 💞💞💞 I know for the future my partner has to love themselves enough to provide that type of love I truly seek. My dads love is a small amount and that is all he can give in this lifetime. I am planning to take a trip to see him so he can actually grasp what he has been missing all of these yrs honest love and grace from the child you have made Exhales
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Heavy day yet still bright in spirit
35 & Over Community / by Lenaye8
Last post
 April 10th
...See more Yesterday was my heavy day, my mum finally ahowed some of her emotions, she has taught/be trained to close off her emotions/feelings and her anger just shows up when we hae sinple convos or her triggers are pushed by the smallest things, one thing about parents some of them do not know how to truly heal themselves or want the needed help. It took the strength if ne and ny sister to just hug my mom, she give her that love her inner child truly needs and did not get growing up. A lot of unpacking this is only step one. My mum does need therapy and I pray that she seeks it cuz these hard yakks she can only see half way into since there is another form of clarity she needs to resonate with, learn from and begin to heal and love on her inner child so she can grow n be her best self. With the desth of her mom only a year fresh she is still grieving/ had to take over the estate clean pay to clean up and maintain the bills for the house. That is headry, we watched and helped her out the best way we could during those times. She is still learning it is okay to be soft and not so cold, my mum is locked inside of the picture she must be perfect. I know most ppl go thru that in life, it drove me nuts so I always showed her my real self even if she did not get it. Now as a parent of a young women, I show up i ways my mother did not and teach her too even if it does not make sense to her fully. Un-learning the ways of how we been taught to speak and treat one another in abusive ways, was something my mum did not know how to escape from. It still weighs on her. I am tired of the verbal abuse from her. Gave her grace during the grieving process we all lost my gma. It was rough yet while I live breathe and have a choice to atay peaceful and remain healthy. All i can do is show my mum the way and love her. It will take tike cuz I am still processing the breakthru yesterday. My nervous system beeds a break sooo eye shall re-align it in the sauna and just breathe. Alot of tears and deeep exhales helped me thru it. Still in motion of taking careof my mental health
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Desling with the in between
7 Cups Online Therapy / by Lenaye8
Last post
 January 16th
...See more Deep Exhales.. Deep Exhales.. dealing with the in between of healing from a two month mind cluck of a job who was not paying us for hard bodywork labor. It truly hurt my whole being cuz I was sold on a scam/exploited for my talent time and energy 😖😖 I made enough to pay my bills and take care of myself yet it came with a heaping amount of stress, confusion, miscommunication, and toxic energy. My mindset had to flip again and go over my plan to keep me healthy including taking care of my daughter properly. I am feeling it more since my family thinks I may not be working hard enough. All perception of how they see me, whichbmay look like stillness… I move diff for my own peace of mind. I am still applying for jobs I have never stopped since jan 2025. Even with my gigs in between I have never stopped posting my yoga content, pouring into healing myself and child. They may not fully see me yet I know I am working hard my whole being is working to stay in a positive mindset and not sink into a depressy mood even if I it does come up for a day which was yesterday. 😕 It was a heavy day going thru the motions. I feel better today just praying for divine connection with my next job, so I regain my focus on adulting/ goals. This is feeling is not fun at all
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I thought the best…
General Support / by Lenaye8
Last post
 December 13th, 2025
...See more I thought wrong about my next contract hob and yes I do have the option to up and leave once I obtain my next real paying gig. The contract is paying pennies for bodywork which is not healthy on me. My boundaries are loud and clear. I brought it up to the ppl I report too abd they were silent still fumbeling the answers and sticking to the fact they needed more help. I am not in my 20’s when I helped over 20+ ppl to start or pour into their dreams/business instead of mines fully. So yeah it feels like a step back from what I should be making on a day to day basis. I feel like I need to hide the majority of me when I am there and get home safely. I truly dislike seeing business as a money grab and not for the community frfr
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In transition
Work & Career / by Lenaye8
Last post
 October 18th, 2025
...See more It has been a two weeks and three days since I resigned from my previous job in the restaurant industry. My spirit was drained, my not in the wesry space of not knowing when the job will last. It was not worth the energy. In 9 months of hiding myself, I missed teaching yoga and connecting with my community. In that same breathe I applied to my current traning position as a stretch practioncer which is in my therpautic background. massage + yoga While training all my issues are releasing from my tissues, I did my beat to rest before I began traning this week. This form of healinng theraputics is new to me deeply. With all the positive feedback and love I was happily over stimulated which thru me a bit off today/being over worked on during traning. My body is saying to rest and start again on Monday am or Tuesday so I can really take the time to take care of my body with out racing the clock like my chef self does from time to time🥲😅🤎 i feel confident in my practice now it is time to deeply pour into myself to power up to my next level!!!
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Work life pivots
General Support / by Lenaye8
Last post
 September 5th, 2025
...See more This month was a whole pivot for where I want to work next, the restaurant is still a sinking ship and the more days I work I do not want to yet adulting. So I do my best to continue to take care of myself. Even short staffed that part is a diff type of weight on my mental. I thought I had to work 5 days straight since another staff memeber quit as concierge which is my first position, I do not get to work as a shift leader as much due to ppl quitting that position or getting fired. That type of pressure my soft life does not need. Due to my past injuries from jobs. I have to very mindful of my body while working. While I continue to support my overall health𧡠After work I am going to the gym to decompress. I did get some yoga in to helo my body release the tension it felt today before I left out for work. I am continuing to look for another job daily. Keeping in prayer to keep my faith
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