Starting bookkeeping course

I started a bookkeeping course because it was the only program I could register for at the time . The advisor told me I only need 4 classes to get certified. Last night I looked at the book and cried. I don’t know if I’ll like it but I have to take it or I’ll end up paying out of pocket. I got financial aid . If I fail I’m in trouble too . I just need to learn how to like it. I had nightmares last night because I was sad. I’m sad that at my age I’m still lost and I don’t know what to do career wise . If only I found a decent job I wouldn’t have tried to go back to college.