The Air is Heavy.
All around me it feels...heavy. I'm going through so much right now. Too much to ever write out here. I feel like I can't even talk to anyone because my situation is so screwed up that I know it would be too hard for people to understand. Then there would be judgment and I just can't handle that right now. So instead I'm finding myself quieter than usual and preferring to be alone when I am afforded that opportunity. I used to be one that loved hugs and giving hugs...physical touch was my live language...but now I can't stand being touched. It's like my skin is on fire and if someone hugs me I might break into a million pieces.
Do you ever feel like you're just done being hurt and inadvertently hurting others so you want to just turn off your feelings/heart? Just go numb?
I remember being happy. Feels like forever ago.
I'm already numb. I'm not suicidal, so please don't think that or send anyone after me. I'm just...broken and numb...and I'm not sure I'll ever be me again.
@BrokenButterfly33 Hello, First off I want to say, I know exactly how you are feeling. I have felt the same way for the past 8 months now. The feeling of wanting to turn off my feelings and just go numb. I completely understand what you mean.
I do hope you be okay, and just remember that you aren’t alone. Things will get better for you I hope :”)
I hope whatever your going through right now, that things eventually get easier for you and not difficult or heavy. :(
I totally understand exactly how you feel. I don't talk to anyone either because no one would understand and I don't need anyone judging me for my situation. And my situation is pretty messed up. Sometimes I wonder how I tend to get myself into the messes that I get myself into. Most of the time I want to run away and be alone, but I don't handle being alone very well. But then I think that people would be better off with out me in there lives. (NO, I am also not suicidal) but I feel like I bring pain to people and I don't know how to stop it. :(
