Now that I have lived 50 years, my goals for the future are...

My goal is to be the person I wanted in my life growing up. To be a listener, an encourager, someone to laugh with, someone to cry with, someone who loves and puts others first. I want to be a role model and help as many people as possible.

My goal is to learn to be happy with myself.

I want to make my time here on earth count for something.

I know what I 'should' feel. i should feel like theres no more time to mess around. I should become the person I know myself to be, rid myself of fearand not hold back. But i've 60 years of bad habits and what i've crafted for the end along with the circumstances life has thrown at me, well it doesnt look good. All I want at this point is to be healthy, somewhat happy, to be safe and fed and create my artwork and die quietly in my sleep. Nothing grande and nothing fancy. Looks like none of it will happen.

....live 50 more!

i find that i am becoming even more deeply spiritual as i continue in this world. i am able to see things that once bothered me in a much more positive light. i have made peace with what i once considered an 'abusive childhood', seeing now how it lead me to become a more self-sufficient, innovative and independent spirit~!