Trying to be completely sober
So, I am honestly not sure what to call myself. I wouldn’t say I’m a true full blown addict and never went into rehab or anything like that, but I have smoked weed for years and always very dependable on it and this past warm season we had I was drinking almost everyday and was taking opioids here and there, along with stimulants because of get very addicted to energy. I snorted two lines of coke once and loved it. Lately I have been having dreams of doing it again beci really enjoyed it and it scares me. I was able to stop myself from drinking too much and stopped taking opioids and stimulants all on my own, but did start drinking more excessively recently and I’m trying to stop and to boot I am on prescription antipsychotic to help with mental illness so I wanted to fully commit to no drinking or anything that makes me non sober like weed too which is harder for me because I always loved it and been depending on it for years now to help with relaxation and stress but I feel mixing it with my prescription medication makes it so it isn’t working right and making me more tired. So, done with my rant. What would y’all say I am? Because I don’t know anymore. I usually aimed towards a very addictive personality because when I did give up drinking and opioids for a bit I got very addicted to shopping and now I’m in a hole money wise. It’s like I’m always replacing one addiction with another.
@kcm1296 There is an addiction model that is based on environment. They placed rats in typical rat cages, and others in a “rat park”. The park was a nice space that the rats enjoyed. The rats in rat park didn’t have a tendency to drink the drugs that were available to both groups. Some rich people who can control their environment also get addicted. The rat cage is in their head. Build a park in your internal world. Mindfulness meditation is a good way to do that - it’s not about being happy and calm all the time, because there are rainy days in the park, it’s more a way to keep the choice of staying in the park or returning to the cage.
@helpfulAvocado7912 thanks really like the metaphor you used it makes since. I do definitely want to start with meditation it used to help I just haven’t gone around to doing it for awhile now due to what I explained and how my mind just seems to never shut up.