New Here - Marijuana Addiction

I've been browsing 7cups for a little while now and finally have a little time to post. I've been really struggling with things lately and of course, the shortage of mental health supports in my area means long waitlists so I'm trying to find something else to help in the meantime.

Basically, I want to quit smoking but I've been really stressed so I'm just smoking more and not enjoying it.

I'm 30 years old and have been smoking for about 15 years. Daily for maybe 12 years. I used to smoke cigarettes to but I quit that about 5 years ago. I've quit here and there for a few weeks, up to a few months at a time but always come back.

I have a 3 year old and an 8 month old. They're the main reason that I want to quit. I don't believe that weed is bad necessarily but addiction runs in our families and I don't want them raised thinking being high all the time is ok. I smoke outside and try to keep it away from them as much as possible but they're eventually going to see something or wonder what's up. We're also trying to save for a home and it would be much easier if I stopped spending money on my addiction.

I could keep going but I'll leave it at that for now. Would love any advice you all have or words of encouragement! Happy to have found a place to share because things have been heavy lately and I need to get out of this funk.