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@gentleBlueberry8721

Hello there! Welcome to 7 cups! :) Thank you for posting here.

It seems like you are dealing with a lot of things right now.. and also for a very long time. Most of the time, addiction to anything is just another way to cope with something else, as you mentioned when your ex left you. But very soon, the addiction itself becomes the problem. I am proud of you that you went for counseling and support groups. How did they go? I understand that they aren't a permanent fix and we might start feeling down again. Could you tell me what were the things that worked for you when you started counseling? Was it joining a support group? Was it some strategies to cope?

You can always talk to one of the listeners here and I hope you get the support you need. Take care. :)

Addiction makes you push away the people you love most I recently your addicted well 2 years ago to cocaine I suffer from depression for about 10 years ago now it hasn't really surface much but lately this last 2 years it's been right up there I wasn't there for my partner when his dad died because I had so much anger towards him because of so much stuff that I got on between me and him and on top of that I was doing drugs now he's with somebody else that makes him happy and is amazing he said and he doesn't want to deal with all this stuff and he was the love of my life and he said he didn't ever be with me again cuz of how bad he hurt when I wasn't there from and I know that was my fault and I said full responsibility for it and I hate myself for it but then the depression feelings are just getting too much for me like I can't handle it like I torture to get out of bed in the morning to go to work and all I'm thinking about the whole time in the day is coming back to get into bed again and when I don't have my son my brain never stops so so I grabbed the drugs cuz they make me stop feeling like this it feels like someone sitting on my chest feels like my heart is exploded my head is burning cuz I cannot get out of my head and I can't go back in time and change it I do I should have done I never taken drugs I started taking the drugs to get me out of bed to be more sociable to have energy to clean my house just don't feeling and now I'm at my lowest and I have seek help but don't see that is really helping me and I have no one to talk to about this I want to help me he was the only one that knew everything