I'm really proud of you for recognizing that you want to make a change in your life. It takes a lot of courage to admit when something isn't serving you well, and you're taking a big step in the right direction. One thing that might be helpful is finding someone you trust to talk to about what you're going through. You might also want to try finding some new hobbies or activities to fill your time and distract yourself from the urge to watch porn. Exercise, reading, painting, or even just going for a walk outside can be great ways to occupy your mind and body in a healthier way.
I feel the same way, not with porn, nut a bad fetish for woman’s stomachs. It started when I was younger and I don’t even know how I got exposed to watching it, maybe the dark sides of having the internet too early in life. I know there are people out there that have done criminally bad things but to me this feels the same because it is so out of character and gross and I just want to stop and change it. I noticed that I always watch it when I’m at my lowest or super upset. I use it as a distraction I guess. Even though my life is heaps better now, I still feel this way sometimes and relapsed only last night. I want so desperately to change because I know it’s human to have attraction but this just feels wrong. I do it when I feel low maybe to have a reason to degrade myself? I am not sure but I want to truly forget the pass, forgive myself, be forgiven, and move forward for once.
I think I coul help you...are you interested?
