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PathStep 15 Compassion hearts1,497 Forum posts163 Forum upvotes412 Current upvotes412 Age GroupAdult Last activeAugust, 2026 Member sinceJanuary 19, 2025
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No matter what, I won't un-alive myself.

I will try to keep the temporary nature of both good and bad days, in my mind.

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God's Joker 🤡 (A poetry)
General Support / by SoulwithGoals
Last post
 Sunday
...See more This is a letter/song/poetry I am writing to express how I feel after trying to- walk in spiritual path/ try to connect with God for around 4-5 years. Title : God's Joker You say you like seeing me cry for you, So I kept burning on embers in front of you but nothing was visible from you. All my life, I remained a joker 𤡠Running after you, my life became a circus. [Chorus] What a wonderful lesson you taught me on how to live: To remain alive continuously, and drink poison still After giving wounds to my heart, you told me that Neither am I to die, nor am I to reach you quick. After taking one breath, I take two deep sighs; Even my pains have now had enough. All my life, I remained a clown ð¤¡; Running after you, my life became a circus. (x2) The ones ignorant about you, are living a blissful life. The ones loving their family more than you, get to have both the worlds (family life+God's connection) Meanwhile the clown who tried to reach only you, Got everything taken away and not even left with guidance. The clown tried to reach out the doors of guides who could help him with his spiritual limbo, And all of them gave a wide smile and closed the door in slow-mo All my life, I remained a joker 𤡠Running after you, my life became a circus. (x2) ----------------------- Thank you.
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Its ok , you can skip this post
General Support / by SoulwithGoals
Last post
 August 3rd
...See more I know, this post probably won't get much attention. Perhaps its better that way. I.. I am tired of this world and all the people. I wish I never existed in the first place (I am not suicidal, pls don't refer suicidal resources to me). I feel neither belonged to the world, nor to God. My life is been a struggle ... And when i look back.. I see that I spent my life mostly alone. I m sick of loneliness. Things don't get better. Its been the same for 5yrs now.. I am tired of everything. God, people, bonds.. everything has only hurted me. I wander around in this world with fake smiles and feel abandoned. I act as if it will be fine. And I'm a strong warrior and all... But at some points ... It gets suffocating.
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Question to Listeners and Management of 7C
7 Cups Online Therapy / by SoulwithGoals
Last post
 July 11th
...See more I don't understand what's the reason? I've been a Listener before. And after a break. i made a new account for being a Listener. After few days, my account got disapproved. But why? I've tried many ways to mail the management, but no proper response. I haven't violated any conditions. I haven't even listened to that many people. I have listened to a few gneral chats. CAN SOMEONE PLS TELL ME WHY THEY DISAPPROVE MY ACCOUNT?
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Why is life seeming easy suddenly? Mockingly..
General Support / by SoulwithGoals
Last post
 January 11th
...See more After all the pain I suffered, and all the stuffs I coped with.. its almost as if things play out as if nothing ever happened. All those people now act as if they care.. (talking abt offline people). Things seeming normal. I'm kinda... almost feeling carefree. I feel- is this the silence before the storm. Why do I soften out.. when things starts pretending to be normal.. after all the painful hurtful things. And I hate it. I hate it.. when I soften out.. forgetting those moments. Its easier to stay non-feeling, hard hearted.. and just doing my duty.. (coz I don't need to love anyone).. But to survive.. I have to start being like a human. To smile.. to pretend.. to act like I love and care. And in the process of acting.. I start to care. I become soft. All the times when I was being lonely.. I didn't get love from any side. And now when I want to be JUST LITERALLY LEFT ALONE, I don't get that chance. People start acting to care. And... I know.. Its ups and downs and the seasons of life. I know that. But I do know that in my downs.. ik that there won't be ppl helping me (non 7cups ppl maybe).. not even God at times.. But in the ups.. they act as if they're there for you.
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Slight Vent - Why can't I be left alone?
General Support / by SoulwithGoals
Last post
 January 3rd
...See more Its so ironic. To say- 'why can't I be left alone?', Coz I struggle with loneliness. And when I say loneliness , it is deeply internal and something that makes heart to ache and sometimes tears roll when can't be held in. But it is true, when I say - 'why can't I be left alone' . There are only painful irritating people around me, wherever I go. With no consideration and sense of others. At my home, family people fight, hurt, criticize, and curse with hurtful words at each other at times. I am having holidays for some time. So I go to the library at times. But there, even if its a library,.. the students even though grown up have no sense of silence. They keep talking, or making noise or just make their presence so irritating. And then there are even those, who bring their partner/lovers. Its a pain. I'm not jealous. But for someone who has soul crushing loneliness.. and they don't feel loved, and they are still trying to get out of bed.. out of house and focus on their work or doing something in the library.. looking at them all acting close, and talking loudly etc irritates me. I mean library is a place to focus. Why do they even come there. Can't they go to a cafe or somewhere else.. They occupy spaces in parks and library. Today, I didn't go to the library, coz I heard that few family members are going out. So I thought , let me focus at my home itself. Turns out that they are gonna go late. And worst of all, one of my family member, out of all days.. today they chose to come to my room. They told- 'I will study in your room. I won't make any sound'. Now I can't deny or another tantrum will be thrown. I am the youngest and have to listen. And after coming to my room, they start playing God's songs in a medium volume. I mean c'mon, can't they put on earphones? They r playing it in background while studying. Regardless if its God's music.. it still is an irritation (even though I believe in God). And then she even closes the windows coz its cold.. making my room a bit dim.. and difficult to focus. And there is also construction noise. So, back to my original sentence- Why can't I be left alone? I understand that if I say.. why am I lonely? It makes sense. But when no one understands me , then why even occupy space in my life.. when I didn't ask them to be. When I am trying to survive painful days.. by somehow distracting into good habits (which in itself is hard), why be a bother to others. Especially I hate ppl who play music openly. Cant you use earphones? I use earphones 98% of the time. What about me? Don't my ears hurt? I still do use them. They all act (pretend) , Hope I'm not disturbing you. I'm just doing this at a corner. If you were really considerate, then you would shut up and leave me alone.. for someone who doesn't know anything internal about me. And there are even few, who just come and dump their brainload on me. Talking in a way that must make me feel guilty. You didn't do this.. I had to do this.. if you could have helped.. I would have not been doing this.. I have fever.. I have ship*. I don't feel guilty at all. But its a pain. They can go to tours, trips and wherever they want.. to take a break. Meanwhile I am inside my room, like a cave.. and come out to eat, after everyone else eats.. coz a fight might break in. Anyways.. this was my vent. I don't usually like to vent. But idk. I hate it when people be a pain to others, while convincing themselves that they are JUST DOING THEIR WORK .
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7Cups isn't the same anymore. I'm sorry.
General Support / by SoulwithGoals
Last post
 December 18th, 2025
...See more I know people may get offended, but this is how I feel. The listeners, atleast the ones I try to reach,.. they have good enough reviews alright, but when talking they rarely engage. Just a hi or hello, and they keep quiet. That's not just it. I don't feel the same community feeling anymore. I try to find good listeners, takes time to get them. Most probably put an online status and go away. This wastes time of the member. After so much time if I somehow try to talk- either they are inexperienced, or don't help much, or worse don't talk properly. As if its some chore. And some of them after connecting, their messages take few minutes or more to come. Even after immediate connection. They don't even inform. This may sound like a ramble. Maybe it is. But its just 7Cups is not same anymore. Listeners are not as good as they used to be. I guess this is it.
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My Listener Account is Unapproved. Please help.
General Support / by SoulwithGoals
Last post
 November 21st, 2025
...See more I don't know what to do. When I login it says- Your Listener account is Unapproved. I'm unable to listen to people. It says submit a form. I've tried it twice and even waited, but no response. Can someone please help me with this. I didn't break any rules or guidelines. Please help me with this.
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Why not me?
General Support / by SoulwithGoals
Last post
 October 2nd, 2025
...See more I've heard of few tragedies, like the city fire in London, or a Plane crash etc. I'd say, everyone involved in those, didn't wanted to end up like that. Rather than them getting, if it were me... It would have been better. Both the parties would have achieved their goal. Unfortunately, reality is different. One gets the opposite of what they want.
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