Ashamed and Desperate to change!
I'm getting out of a 7 months relationship, this relationship had so much joy and love. I met him when I was nearly a year sober from everything. I was fit and energized. Healthy and emotionally in a good place. Then I relapsed on alcohol. I met him when we were both astronomically wasted. A week later we were dating and I was begining to drink more and more especially when I discovered that coke would be easily accessible. 7 months later, I'm doing coke nearly every day and drink often but I try not to since I'm BP and medicated.
I god extremely drunk and did some things I'm not proud of. My anger comes out more often when I have been drinking excessively. I love him when we are sober together, but we are toxic and bring out the worst in each other.
I'm awaiting his move out date and I'm just so depressed. Day 1 of quitting everything and I'm just really looking for some support. I loved being sober and I really want to get back there!
@SurvivingTrauma8404 you was almost a year sober last time, so I know you got in you to do it again. But this time let's try get you clean forever ❤❤ I'm sorry your relationship has ended, but really it's a blessing in disguise. Getting into the wrong crowd/company. Makes it almost impossible to make changes for yourself. But I believe in you ❤ you can do this, and I'll be here in the corner, rooting for you every step of the way ❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤ everything will be ok, you'll see ❤
Thank you so much for your kind and positive words. I'm on day 13 sober on the date of this writing.
@SurvivingTrauma8404 yaaay! That's really great ❤❤ your doing amazing ❤❤ gives you the giantist tiny hug everrr ❤❤
How are you feeling?
