I am guilty of what I did and still paranoid about my past
I don't know how to start right now. i feel like i messed up my career and relationship. i overthink a lot and came to the point where it *** my brain. only dark thoughts consuming me right now. i don't know i might be quite popular, i know i did mistakes i got pretty bad name with prn addiction around college. my first relationship ended and i feel like she misunderstood that i am using her but i was going through a lot at that time. And that bad name followed when i did masters i quit my masters (it got pretty bad) and my name it just spread quickly. wherever i go outside college and meet at work i feel like there is something they talk about me and i get easily paranoid that they might gonna tease or saying something indirect. Sometimes i feel my phone is even compromised sometimes. i pushed my friends away cause i feel they don't support me or fully on my side on this. i know i made huge mistakes but i can't forgive myself its been 3 to 4 years.
@kentaitaijo
It sounds like your saying your paranoid.. paranoia can cause all kinds of problems.. i'm sorry to hear your having difficulties with college and your friends? I hope things improve with time..🌲
Even when I came to work I felt like they were teasing me or talking about me like I quitted my job. It feels like everyone knows me bad way
I'm struggling with sexual addiction myself but I a different way. I'm feeling poopy, and paranoid too. But please don't continue to beat yourself up. You deserve to be at peace especially if u don't watch it anymore. If u still do or have an sexual issue then you have to change. Way easier said than done but we have to have the control over ourselves. Also realize even though it's not said everyday, people love us and don't want to see us down or not at our best. Remember you are loved and cared about, even from people you don't know or realize. Much love bro
I feel like ppl around me being judgy and pointing fingers at me. I know I m messed up but it feels *** everyday to look at myself like that and going over nightmares everyday.
