I relapsed after 15 days of stopping masturbation

I hate myself more now and regret*. I was fine when i wasn’t doing it. I feel drained and tired of being addicted to something I don’t want. I tried to count the days I had stopped and they were 15 days!! My goal was 50 days at first then permanent stop and control

*Please help I’m struggling with self ha,rm and did ha,rm myself because of it once.